Why am I so submissive 24 7? Is it because of low self esteem?

[Foru5886]

I barely know what to do. I need direction from others like at work. I try to be more proactive but it's like I freeze inside and can't think or think of anything to do of my own accord.

I also wait for any person to approach me and try to be friends. I have no friends though. But i want marriage but the man would need to really make the moves and stuff. I'm really so blank. I know I have very low self esteem too so maybe that's part of why.

I grew up with narcissistic parents. I am no stranger to constant fear.

And I was made fun of so much growing up. I almost never told anyone or stood up for myself. It hurt so much inside. I'm just used to taking crap from people silently.

[OlderThanILook]

I'm the same way. I have somewhat learned to just accept what I am. I have flaws, but so does everyone else. I shouldn't be treated that much worse than anyone else. That's how I approach things. It's not perfect, but it's better than beating myself up over everything like I used to.

[Violetcity]

In short, yeah, it sounds like a big self esteem issue. I struggle with similar, although I've been doing better lately. Especially with narcissistic parents, presumably the kind who'll fly off the handle if you don't do every little thing just the way they like, it makes sense that could give you some real issues knowing what's the right thing to do on your own.