I constantly feel like I’m not good enough?

I feel like men only want to sleep with me and want no relationship with me. They end up letting me down easy but would still sleep with me if I let them

The last 2 guys I liked so much.. one married another girl. The one I really love just didn’t want me and I feel like he wasn’t really over his ex. He’s “not looking for a relationship” and no matter what I did I couldn’t make him stay. He said he cares about me and my well-being but we weren’t going to be together and so we never slept together. I feel like he hurt me the most.. bc I was so easy to let go of

I feel like I’m done with dating and I can’t take it anymore. I started back drinking and right now I just post half naked pics for money and validation. Maybe I’m unlovable or maybe. I’m working on getting work done to my face.

I really think I like validation more than love. Relationships aren’t for me. I don’t like feeling vulnerable

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I can’t stop comparing myself to his wife and the one I love ex. What do they have that I don’t
I constantly feel like I’m not good enough?
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