Do you think it's weird that I've had 9 ex boyfriends, but most of them ended, and most of the relationships were unsuccessful?

I know that how i only got trust with my ex-boyfriends. Relationships have been more difficult than good for me. There was only one good relationship I had, but it also ended. My last ex boyfriend did turn into a toxic person and kept blaming my trust issueson some girls in the past. He was one that did have derosspion and coudn't take anymore. Since I didn't want to stay and we broke up by text, I ended it. Being single, I am trying to find guys who are not toxic, abusive, abusers, verbally abusive. i can only date or be in a relationship with a guy with a learning disability. I only seem has anxiety now and also don't want to be used and dump again. two of my ex boyfriend did get back into touch. One of them try to ask me out to be their girlfriend on Instagram and said no your are cheater reply. i was asking if they know any single men or boys. I asked some of my friends as well, but they didn't know any guys that are single. That's why I only do online dating if I can find similar guys. some lasted 6 months or a year. I didn't have any sex since I'm virgin and I don't see the point of having sex and i get uncomfortable by some guys asking questions about it. How would you see me now and understand that i might be picking the same guys but hopeful that i learn the hard lesson now and find someone that is decent guy. The only thing that worries me is when I am accused of cheating and have been accused of cheating my last ex boyfriend. I didn't cheat. I was always loyal to any ex boyfriend that i did have. now i'm single and has very hard to find a new boyfriend and don't what change and did anything wrong or not?

Do you think its weird that Ive had 9 ex boyfriends, but most of them ended, and most of the relationships were unsuccessful?
Do you think it's weird that I've had 9 ex boyfriends, but most of them ended, and most of the relationships were unsuccessful?
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