Anyone else grew up unnatractive to others? Has anything changed for you as you got older?

Back when I was younger i was depressed over my appearance honestly felt like no females really liked me anyway no one really told me they actually liked me either. made me just depressed each day honestly I remember one time I went to a school dance in middle school and both of my friends had partners that wanted to be with them so I just sat against the wall, but what hurt the most was I tried to hold my tears in just to fail at that too, I wanted to be their supportive friend that didn't feel bad about not getting the same treatment and all but it got to me pretty bad inside I just wanted to go home, but I didn't want to leave my friends behind so I sat there watching everyone else, trying to force a smile while wiping tears away. After that night Years pass old classmates look like they literally grew up while i still get told i look like i never changed old friends move towns and I didn't even bother making new friends because I just didn't find myself good enough, nor have enough confidence in my self anyway so eachday everyday i was late every morning to highschool I never bothered going outside or anywhere so when lunch came I just sat in the bathroom, or did anything I could to avoid sitting alone in the cafeteria, since I was late I had to go to Saturday school (in my school they put you in a white cubical for about 8 hours) which never changed anything for me anyway because all I done anyway was sit around 4 white walls all day everyday, except in Saturday school have to hear about everyone else who isn't depressed living a better life than me guess that's cool. But as time went on still hardly a thing changed about me besides my hair being longer I left highschool and got a minimum wage job but frankly I guess I accepted myself a bit more. Hated myself for not being like others but accepted my self because of my long distance girlfriends care and love she gave me and best part was seeing her hug me made everything bad in my head fade away.
Anyone else grew up unnatractive to others? Has anything changed for you as you got older?
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