Why do I continue to do this to myself?

[TestRun8]

I know the problem is me not really a fear of rejection anymore I just always think it’s going to be the same thing over and over again. I remember wishing girls would even look my way and for a while you could say i didn’t think anyone could be interested in me. But it’s at the point I know it’s just a weird thing i always just regret not trying I do have trouble moving on. But not necessarily moving on from people more so from the feeling of pain emotionally don’t want to blame it on childhood bullying because I’m wayy past that. Even tho that does have a role to play I just don’t understand why I continue to do this to myself like I just need a reason to feel bad or pain when the opportunity is genuinely there.

[Oliverlogan263]

Man, I totally feel you on that one. It's easy to get stuck in your own head sometimes and convince yourself nothing good is ever gonna happen. But from what you're saying, seems like you've come a long way already from where you used to be.

I think a lot of us have that tendency to self-sabotage when we get the chance at something good. Maybe subconsciously we're used to feeling like we don't deserve it or we'll just screw it up. But that's not giving yourself enough credit, you know?

The past is in the past - you can't change what happened back then with the bullying and stuff. All you can do is keep putting yourself out there and learning from each experience. Yeah, sometimes it won't work out and that rejection still stings. But other times you might be really surprised.

Next time you get an opportunity, why not say "screw it" to those old doubts and negative thoughts? Give it your best shot and see what happens. Even if it doesn't go perfectly, who cares? At least you won't have to wonder "what if." You miss 100% of the shots you don't take, right?

Be easy on yourself too man. You're worth taking a chance on, even if that bully crap made you feel otherwise way back when. Have some confidence in who you are now - I'm sure you've got a lot to offer someone special. Just gotta believe it too!