Am I wasting my life on her?

So I met this girl irl after a more than a year of talking to each other online. My dumbass bought her more than 10 grand worth of stuff. I paid for her car repair, I paid for her vacation that she had. I even paid for her schooling. And only for her to say to me in person that she doesn’t know if we can be a couple. And she got mad at me for when we held hands even though she said it was okay only for her to get pissed at me for doing so. And since we had this little argument, she ended up going to her brother’s house while i showed up in her country. And she got upset that i was thinking of blocking her because i was crying alone while eating because i was dumb enough to come to a country for a girl who’s left early. And she hasn’t answered my text this morning

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She’ll probably answer later on. And act like nothing happened. But I’m so pissed that I wasted all this money and I loved her. Only to be treated like sh$t!
Am I wasting my life on her?
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