My boyfriend and I have a pretty good relationship, or so I thought, but recently I found out that he was still subscribed to pictures of girls completely not dressed on reddit. Now, I'm not really controlling or quick to get upset, we've never even had a fight in the six months we've been dating, but somehow it really affected me.
I didn't see him looking at any of the posts, but I saw them on his front page. I didn't want to bring it up because it seemed petty, but it kept bothering me and it made me not want to talk to him or let him touch me because I assumed he'd be comparing me to other girls.
We usually have intercourse at least once a day and basically live together, and I still hung out with him but he knew something was wrong and after two days I finally told him what.
He laughed at first and said it was because he was a boy and that's what boys do. But I'm having a really hard time accepting that because he's a boy I have to accept that he looks at other women. I wouldn't mind if we weren't as active and if it was regular videos, that's different entirely. But these are real girls posting and somehow that feels a lot different and it really hurts me.
I told him that it hurt me and I didn't feel comfortable with him touching me anymore and that just followed with him apologizing and saying he loves me over and over. And I wanted to let it go and believe him, but I literally couldn't stop thinking about it. He asked me the next day if I was going to forgive him and how sorry he was he made me cry and I explained why it made me so upset and how now I think he wishes I looked different or thinks of other girls when we do it, and he denied both of those.
I accepted his apology and I've been back to normal with him, but I still feel so sad. I don't know what to do. We never cleared up if he was going to continue doing it, and it honestly makes me feel like he couldn't love me and think I'm as beautiful as he says if he looks at other real girls online.
Am I crazy? How do I let this go?
And for other guys, what's your input? Why is it okay to look at other girl's nude pictures?
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I'm in the same boat as you. This is my question: link
It seems like nowadays this is becoming more of an issue with things like webcam and being able to watch p*rn live. My boyfriend paid for a site where he can watch girls of his choice doing sexual things for a bunch of guys all the while they're getting off to it. I do feel cheated on and for me it was a deal breaker. Problem is, he keeps calling me and doesn't want to lose me. He still "loves" me. But he doesn't understand that what he did is something I can't live with not now or ever and I feel disrespected, cheated on, used, and ultimately hurt that he had to get off to "live" girls when I would give him everything for free no less...
I think my boyfriend had some kind of p*rn addiction because he did this way before me and him even got together. But he started to feel bad about it too because I think he realized halfway into our relationship which was getting more serious that it was cheating. But he still didn't stop. He wants to go to couples counseling or something like that but I would rather be with someone who doesn't have this problem.0