Polls: Dating

What would you predict the ratio to be if so?
1:10 ? Or?
Meaning for every 1 hot guy there are 10 hot girls.

I got super mad. we got into a fight and I threw some stuff and overturned things, and my boyfriend grabbed my neck and strangled me in order to stop and then threw me to the ground. I'm hurting now. Was that justified?

He sent me this:

“Hey sorry the last few days were rough. I know you’re feeling distanced I can feel it too... I don’t want to pressure you and I was kind of feeling like I made things worse. I’ve also been procrastinating telling you because once it’s said it’s said and I can’t bring it back in. Well here goes. I have this deep fear that once I see you that maybe you won’t feel for me how you think you do... or won’t feel how I feel about you. I know with all of me how I feel about you and part of me knows that I’d be lucky to even ever be with you. I don’t want that hope to ever be crushed. Part of me would rather live with the hope that someday I can make you mine then come to the realization that maybe you don’t want that after seeing me. I honestly feel more for you then I’ve even told you. There’s feelings I’ve just waited to say in person because even if I only get too say it one time then at least I’ll be able to look at you and genuinely know how you feel. I can’t lose that hope with you it gives me so much motivation and gets me through a lot of hard times because I know that everything is worth it if you’re there with me in the end❤️” THEN asked something like “What days are you free? I want to take you on a trip. If I wait til my life is perfect then I may never have a chance with you.”

Then he DISAPPEARED, but still viewed my social media stories.
I sent him a message after a week of silence and he stopped viewing my stories.

WTF is even happening?
He finally responded after 2 weeks. Wishing me a Merry Christmas saying he was in a dark place because a loved one passed, and that he doesn’t have any doubts about me, and he wish I knew how he “felt.”

We’ve talked/connected all day every day for 1.5 years straight, but I blocked him because I’m tired of being blatantly ghosted this month, but I can’t help but feel cruel. Why did he ghost me? Was it the right choice for me to walk away for good? My instincts are all over the place. I’m heartbroken:(

I do have a very innocent look. Seriously, I also realized that strangers are more likely to talk to me than others (asking about the way, complaing about smth, asking for a lighter etc. 😂). According to a lot of people I'm considered as pretty. Is this a disadvantage for me when it comes to dating? just by the look by the way

and would you date someone who looks Iranian?

I feel like my life is very sad and lonely to a lot of people. And they’re certainly right, it used to hurt more but I’ve become more content. I see people on social media all the time spending time with family and they do things together, friends and significant others etc. They don’t seem drama filled and everyone gets along so well, I feel like my life has been the opposite. I’m only in my mid twenties and can say that I’m always alone, I’m at the point where I know for a fact that I will never find love. Never been in a long term relationship, I don’t have any friends (online friends only but don’t count). I don’t talk to almost all of my family, I only speak to my parents and brothers. There’s been drama with most people I’ve called friends, workplaces, school life, family etc and I’ve just secluded myself. It’s become more bearable, at the point where

TL;DR:I am bitter and keep people at arms length. I was nicer and friendlier previously, drama happened. I’m to my self and what happens? Drama. I cannot win, people are just complicated and flawed. Am I just super unlucky? Or is this most people who seem to hide it better?