Why I can't do more than the bare minimum?

[Anonymous]

I am very self-disciplined and I do my study/work very well. However, I don't have big plans and dreams like my peers. I don't have long-term goals. I just want to make my miserable life as bearable as possible. When I had some dreams and goals, I was so emotionally invested that I was burnt out and I quit all those endeavours.

I write essays as a hobby, but I keep a low profile and I don't really want to become commercial and "sell" myself. These essays are quite inaccessible to most people. My cultural interests are very obscure and almost nobody reads the stuff I'm into anymore. I am averse to networking and I only care about genuine deep conversations.

[CupcakeTheDestroyer]

You’re just not a super ambitious person. There’s nothing wrong with that and wanting to just live an easy and comfortable life, but if you constantly compare your level of success to other people’s idea of success, you’re going to find yourself questioning if easy and comfortable is enough if it means missing out on this social milestone. You can certainly pursue whatever you like, but if you compare your ideals to the ideals of friends, family, or society, you’re not going to be able to be happy

[Asker]

I am ambitions to read and have as much knowledge in this life before I die, not ambitions for media exposure

[provokeesmokee]

Sounds like you have a niche and, if you want to create a business around it, you can. But you don't have to.

But honestly? You sound like you're doing fine. You're living, you have a career, you do a hobby you enjoy. You don't need to do more if you don't want to.

[Asker]

I can create a business around it, but if I want to make profit I would have to compromise and write salable texts instead of what is really valuable for me

[Asker]

I don't have a career. I have a job

[provokeesmokee]

Nah, you don't need to. You just won't have the biggest market. But the niche you appeal to will pay your worth. Don't treat it like you're trying to make it your day job, and you'll be able to keep writing what you want.

Eh, career/job. It's a source of money. If it serves what you need, it doesn't necessarily need to be more.

[Anonymous]

Keep working on it

[jahaims]

You lack motivation