... Easier to Hate

[Betwyn]

I've hated you for as long as I can remember..

Since before I ever even knew you..

Hated you for running..

For abandoning us..

When I was little..

I hated you for existing..

Like that very fact..

Caused him to cease..

I hated you for not caring..

For not showing an interest in me...

In my life..

For being unavailable..

I hated you for not showing up..

For your revolving cast of men..

Many cared for me more then you did..

Some, maybe too much..

I hated how you would flirt with my guy friends..

Or talk to them about me..

How you tried to pass off as my sister..

Or maybe an Aunt..

I hated how you programmed me..

How even now, I can't really shake it..

Things that shouldn't matter..

Things I shouldn't care about..

Sure, right now, we get along..

But we have more the relationship you always wanted..

Less mother - daughter..

More friends or cousins..

Looking back on it all..

I think I've hated you most..

Because I'm so much like you it scares me..

And, it's easier..

To hate you.

[muspelhem_5]

Really like this. Thanks for posting.

[jacquesvol]

I too like it.

[muspelhem_5]

@jacquesvol: Jacques, you have exquisite taste!

[Betwyn]

Thank you, muspelhem_5 and @jacquesvol

[jacquesvol]

@Blueeyes18
Hate isn't always a deliberate choice. It can have a due cause. It's sometimes outright impossible to love an ill-natured person when society supposes you to do it.

[muspelhem_5]

You're welcome, Take Owner :)

[COCOCHANEL]

i know how you feel :/

[Sinister]

I've always been a huge fan of your poems, with acknowledgement of the hate as well as the pain, what realization do you have moving forward? Perhaps breaking the shackles that binds you to think that you're like her or maybe more to the fact that with a little hope that you can move toward not being like her fully knowing that there's a less than desirable bond between you & her... very intriguing indeed. What say you @Betwyn?

[Betwyn]

I'm honestly not sure Sin.. I don't think we'll ever have the traditional Mother/Daughter relationship.

That ship sailed before I was even born.

I'm not like her in every way, so I guess there is something in that.

[Sinister]

@Betwyn, you stating that you're not like her in every way sounds like a positive to me.

[Betwyn]

I still am like her in many ways. -.-

[Sinister]

@Betwyn - Its all perception, you viewing the similarities of you and her, understand it that it is what it is but its NOT all who you are. This poem you wrote, to me it says you realize it and know it. Hate her if you want and damn her to the blackest pits of hell even, but do not let those similarities be your definition just cause science says it or because of her actions.

[JackKerouac77]

This is about your mother and I dig it. But I'll offer my own quote in rebuttal:

"Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that."
- Martin Luther King, Jr.

[Betwyn]

Without light... the shadow's couldn't exist.

[JackKerouac77]

Exactly

[YourFutureEx]

I hate you
For giving me birth
And these opportunities
To hate you

[findingdreamland]

When you judge more , you become like them more. Especially parents. So accept them as they are and move on with your life.

[Anonymous]

I understand you.
Let the hate flow out, to get rid of it.
Otherwise, one day:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PHQLQ1Rc_Js

[YazanAA]

With all the respect to you, but I would never ever hate the woman who carried me 9 months in her womb no matter how bad she is.

[Blueeyes18]

Really I think it's better to love it hurts yourself to hate

[Betwyn]

if only life were as easy is that

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We feel, what we feel, when we feel it.

[Blueeyes18]

Yes I know I'm not saying I don't hate because i do I have but then it makes me the worst version of me I can be so I focus on those I love

[RedLook]

What's wrong with you? need help or somebody to talk?

[Betwyn]

This is how I work through things. Never expected it to get featured.

[RedLook]

take it easy girl

[Byakuyarko]

wow... I'm not even going to ask... Very honest and heartfelt

[Anonymous]

I got about two lines in before quitting. Poetry is bullshit.

[Anonymous]

easier to hate, but hate brings ruin upon everyone around yuo and especially yourself. forgiveness is harder but more rewarding and fruitfull for all.

[Longblackveil]

Goood , goood , let the hate flow through you

[Nice_Guy_Last]

Something something dark side, something something complete.

[peachblossomluck]

Brilliant! (((Hugs)))

[Betwyn]

Thank you :)

[peachblossomluck]

Your mom is a narcissist.

[JbballJ25]

Who is this about?

[Betwyn]

It's 'to' my mother..

[Anonymous]

Good take.