(19F) I'm genuinely so gross and unhygienic as a person, how do I stop?

[Anonymous]

I can't believe I'm writing this. I am disgusting. I don't look disgusting and I wear nice clothes, smell good, and wear makeup... but the things I do in private are gross. I pick my nose and eat it, I pick my scabs and eat them, I eat my dead skin and my eyelashes. I will practically have any fluid that comes out of any orfice in my body. Blood, sweat, tears, you name it. Like it's truly gross. I don't clean for shit. I purposely don't invite people to my room unless I really must because I have no desire to clean it. I leave food until it molds and trash everywhere. I don't put things away at all. I didn't clean my bedsheets for a full year. And not unless I have a true excuse, I can't clean anything. It's like I care about my exterior and the way I present myself, but I don't give a damn about the interior. And my mom tried as a kid, but nothing ever worked... and now I'm here. How do I stop this madness once and for all?

[MCheetah]

I know who on here wrote this post. 19 year old female who says she has bad hygiene... Yep.

Anyway, I've heard of this before. It was a mental disorder known as Autocannibalism, which is just one form of Dermatophagia. If you really want to change, you need to encourage your family and friends to sit in your room, absorb the stink, and shame you for it. Shame is often a strong motivator for behavioral changes, actually.

Shame! Shame! Shame! Shame! Shame! Shame!

[DavidRaul]

Well you have a problem. Why don't you start to socialize with people and see a therapist for a start.

[cute_short_nerd]

See a therapist I think you have clinical depression no I'm not a professional

[lawhawk]

Yoi have to make the choice to change. If you can't on your own then you need to seek professional help.

[Marianna546]

You sound depressed and sad.

[Sorbay]

Seems normal to me