Family got extremly embaressed of me they didn't hang out with me for 10+ years?

He invited me to a house party. I made friends with his friends. One girl wouldn't stop eyeing me.

I'm a silly goof ball and got wasted and did dumb shit.

I get it their embarrassed but for 10 years?

In those 10 years I begged and pleaded to hang out but because of my alcohism and mental health they wanted absolutely no parts.

My questions is was it really that big of a deal considering everyone has made out to be An ass some time in their life? I was just loud and drunk being super young too. Did I really deserve the treatment, cold shoulder and later on the bullying by them?

Family got extremly embaressed of me they didn't hang out with me for 10+ years?
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