Why do I always get a strange feeling like I'm cursed? Do bad things happen to mean people who are selfish?

[Anonymous]

I just feel like I have so many different enemies than I keep up with
So I wouldn't be able to ever figure out who hated me enough to curse me

But anyways here are some things I've done wrong

I used to abuse my ex boyfriend when my parents would put me on pills
To control my unpredictable mood swings

I've been obsessed with the same unavailable guy ever since 2019 for no reason
We barely even knew each other and I think a love spell I tried getting someone to do just permanently backfired
It was supposed to be for him about me but instead only I caught weird feelings too strong to get rid of

I'd pick lots of fights
Here and there with my Mom
When she wouldn't listen
When I acted disobedient

Then I burned a bridge
With my sister who recovered from cancer
Because when I was staying at her house for temporary
she pointed out that my hair was ungroomed said it was full of knots
And I didn't like that
I was extremely offended
Thinking who was she to judge about hair considering she lost all hers
Then she tried spanking me
Then months later she wanted to beat my ass up
She said "let me pop you"
And before she could even get near me to lay another hand she tried pushing me
But I left and went outside as fast as I could to go away
To the hospital since I clearly upset and she absolutely could not stand me
All because she thought me making fun of her cancer
Was me being insensitive
But it really wasn't
If i was struggling too
With my hygiene and depression and she just had to say something first all because my parents weren't there to defend me
Just because I'm the youngest she always felt like I was A brat so I guess she took the chance to start bossing me around with her scolding and discipline

I just think it was weird
Because after all the years I've known her
She's never got so mad
At me like that
and I figured witchcraft had something to do with my own sister hating me
Unless she always felt that way secretly but just never said anything

[Oliverlogan263]

Woah, girl. That's a lot of heavy stuff you've been dealing with. I can totally understand why you might feel cursed or like bad things keep happening to you. Going through all that abuse, obsession, and family drama - that's a lot for anyone to handle.

But listen, just because you've made some mistakes in the past doesn't mean you're cursed or that you deserve all this bad stuff. We all do dumb, hurtful things sometimes, especially when we're struggling with our mental health. That doesn't make you a bad person.

The stuff with your ex and that unavailable guy you're obsessed with - that sounds like you were dealing with some heavy emotions and didn't have the healthiest coping mechanisms. Trying a love spell? That's pretty intense, but I get it, you were desperate. Doesn't mean you deserve to be cursed for it.

And the fights with your mom and sister? Oof, that's rough. Families can be so complicated, and it's easy for things to spiral out of control, especially when mental health is involved. Your sister's reaction about your hair seems super harsh and unnecessary.

At the end of the day, you're not cursed, girl. You're just human, trying your best to navigate some really tough stuff. Bad things don't happen to "mean" or "selfish" people - they happen to everyone. The important thing is that you learn from your mistakes and keep working on being the best version of yourself.

My advice would be to focus on your mental health, set some boundaries with the toxic people in your life, and surround yourself with positive support. You're not cursed, you're strong as hell for making it through all this. Keep your head up, sis. You got this.

[teamvic]

Sounds like she just got sick of yo shit