Polls: Family & Friends

Right at 12. Thanks parents. I mean we lived on a shit street and they moved me into a frickin farm estate. So I don’t really blame their reasons. But it was seriously traumatic.

All friends practically gone. And weirdly the richer school district had meaner kids. Still gets to me today….

Girls, did you and your sisters get more stuff than your brothers

I notice how in the US, most families aren't exactly sincere about their love for each other nor how tight-knit they truly are. Outside of the US or most Western countries, you have families legitimately having each others' backs and having actual respect for each other, and never throw each other under the bus when push really comes to shove in life. I have yet to see that in any Western families (especially American families).

Emotional abuse and tearing others down and only spending time with certain family members because they need or want something from them, seem to be what's more common among Western families.

Let's be real, people often say how parents give unconditional love to their kids but going by the past couple of decades and especially the past couple of years when the COVID pandemic was happening, I was convinced that this whole concept of "unconditional love" is all bullshit. Even unconditional love from parents is all bullshit because they do have a limit towards their own kids without hardly ever being upfront about it. I've seen plenty of parents who are very quick to cut their own kids out of their life over petty drama and how quickly parents would throw their own kids into the wolves way too soon (as soon as they hit age 18) without any actual real-world preparation and not give a fuck about them once they finally reach adulthood.

The very harsh truth about the real world is that every single human being on this planet only cares about themselves/is self-serving and would kick the ladders down on others if that helps them get ahead in society. Even family members don't sincerely care about other family members and see their other family members as nothing more than nuisances to them.

From my observations it’s tougher for women who had abusive fathers vs abusive mothers. It’s also very hard for men who had abusive mothers vs abusive fathers (society rarely talks about this).

The issue is I can easily relate to another man and understand motivations are vs. him being an actual selfish pos.

However I will never fully understand how women think. I can improve with experience but it’s next to impossible for 97% of men to fully get it (there is a tiny 3% percentage of men who naturally get it)

It’s harder for me to understand if a woman is just controlled by her emotion (hence acting unfair/irrational from my POV) vs. her actually being a selfish pos. I can’t relate to how she thinks. I can only rely on my experience and patience.

But I also need to be wise enough to quickly identify if she just doesn’t respect me. When I was younger I gave some undeserving women way too much leeway with this crap simply because they are women (I watched my dad give my mom way too much leeway). But nowadays I got better developed radar for this crap.

A mother will leave an impression (right or wrong) on how women are supposed to behave. Same goes for how a daughter sees her father.

I argued with friends on discord now they won’t talk to me in private message. Although they talk fine in public chat. Why they ignoring me? Do they dislike me or am I overthinking it? Should I pretend nothing happened or get them to talk to me?

My son’s mother spends the $440 from my pay to go get her nails done, buy her junk food to supply her fat ass, and other things she doesn’t need as she’s never had money. I’m over here just hearing these things as I’m deployed and all that. I get she should be able to use it on some essential bills such as electric which may be a necessity to keep my child going. So let me know what these funds for my child should be going. As I only make 930 and 440 gets taken out!

This is something im just discovering about myself is that I desire connecting with other people soo badly that i will go to great and often unhealthy lengths to secure it. And furthermore if i feel like that connection is denied to me or threatened to be taken away i take it out on them. I get anxious and upset. Unfortunately this has driven people away from me. Alienating myself from others. Especially if i felt one really strongly from the beginning and i feel it might be taken away. Its like giving me a taste of the delicious desert without letting me eat the thing later smh.

ill have to change this about myself now. Does anyone else relate to me?