Now I am a blondie with blue eyes, and a tanned skin, even tho I never truly wanted to be one, but since it was considered the ultimate beauty standard, I felt that being a redhead with pale skin and green eyes would leave me as a seconde option, cause I would constantly hear men saying that blue eyed and blonde hair were the best color and that everything else came secondly!
Now I am receiving a lot of compliment from men, but I feel that they don’t love the real me, which is a redhead with pale skin and green eyes.
They only love me because I look like a barbie doll ( they always compliment me because of these features, but they never did with my ex-coloring), which means, that I would have only been a second option. But I still feel so bad about my self, I wish I could feel confident the way I was, and now I’m feeling depressed, to see that I had to become someone else. Is it weird that I’m not happy with my results, despite being prettier and more popular with men?