Why am I afraid to cuddle with my boyfriend?

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We are together from 2 years, both virgins, both waiting for marriage and it is the first time to be in love .. However he constantly wants to cuddle, hug, kiss and sometimes make up .. and sometimes I just want him to pull back so I feel that I want him and start cuddling myself but he never gives me the chance.. he always starts cuddling whenever we are alone .. I am not annoyed, but I need some air you know ..

I am not sure though how I feel exactly.. I mean I enjoy it , but deep inside I have this fear.. maybe because I am not used to it , and I never ever cuddled before.. but I constantly get this feeling that he wants to use me .. and I did open the subject with him and he said that if he was gonna use me he would ve tried to have sex.. and if I didn't show interest , he would've left me .. which makes sense.. but still I don't know .. am I freaking out too much ? Would a guy who plans to use (physically) a girl stay with her 2 years and only wanna cuddle ?

This is freaking me out and I don't wanna feel dirty , but in the same time I don't wanna waste this time with an amazing boyfriend with my stupid concepts.. please enlighten me :)
Why am I afraid to cuddle with my boyfriend?
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