Sometimes I feel like my anxiety is going away, but then I realize it was never gone and all my problems resurface.
Maybe some of you have this, and i have to say that i hatee feeling this way but it is all I know. Every time I am invited to something I feel anxious and it is just a feeling I can't calm, sometimes i haven't went because of the fear that I cause to myself and i found myself feeling sorry for me for not going.
While back, I started to be more confident and everything felt more easy. Unfortunately, this didn't last I started to feel like shit again, I stared to fear to go out, to say what I think, to talk to strangers , everything came back and worst than before. Know i would get panic attacks without any reasonable reason or just any reason. I can say that I know how to control it a little bit better, but leaving with this is a nightmare.
One of the things that make is it worse is when you talk about how you feel with someone and they tell you that you create your own problems and that just makes me more aware and insecure about myself. Every time i hear that I hate myself because I dont really understand how I feel or what I fear.
Know, I have learned to have more confidence in my self but every time I feel my self falling again. I always say that life its like a rollercoaster every time it peaks it goes to the lowest.