What kind of job should I get? I am transgender who doesn't cross dress?

I don't cross dress because I feel something bad whenever I dress up. It's like negative energy blowing on my face. I feel just comfortable swearing men's wear but then when I start to talk people just freak out. I sound like a woman and act like a woman. I mean I feel disgusted by myself but then I am natural. I feel like I am rejected everywhere because I look like a man but I act like a woman. Some men seem to understand and some women too. But I can't just fit in anywhere. I figure that I need to act like a man when I wear like a man or act like a woman when I dress up. but then I just want to be natural. I don't like faking. I mean.. other transgenders copy straight women and they are so obsessed with looking like a woman and that's all they do feeling so insecure. I don't like that. I mean so far I am just comfortable living as a man. I don't go to places where I have to act like a man all the way. My acting ability is limited. I can't act like men do. so I limit myself going places briefly if I have to. but then it comes to a point where I need a job or money. I need some money but I can't present myself looking like a man sound like a woman. I don't know what to do.

What kind of job should I get? I am transgender who doesn't cross dress?
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