Questions: Girl's Behavior

I'm a black woman, I am ugly. This is not a troll post, not all of the times but most of the times people look at my face in disgust. I have been called ugly far more than I've been called pretty, I am aware. I am also dark I'm 5'5 and 139 lbs this changes nothing, my boyfriend is white. He thinks I am the most beautiful thing he tells me I am but I don't believe him because I am not. Although I do love him I may also have my own personal agenda by being with him that I've also expressed. I want better looking offspring, especially if she is a female. I DO NOT want a daughter that looks like me at all because I cannot carry the pain and hurt she will experience being ugly along with my own ugly pain. I am fine with boys usually ugly women make nice looking boys. I believe that his features will wash out mines, I want my children to be treated fairly and not like how I have for being ugly. Am I Self hating or being logical?

I made my man stay home to care for me today because my period is soooo terrible that I literally can't walk 😣

I feel like this has to be pretty rare that a guy takes off work because of a period but maybe I'm wrong. Guys have you ever done this or would you do this for your girl?

I was helping my daughter change the other day when I removed her top, i noticed her nipples were on little bumps meaning her breasts are starting to develope. Her childminder has also notice this. Her doctor thinks she has Precocious puberty. She is due to have ultrasound next week.