I am apathetic and tired of life and I come home and touc* myself imagining being mole*ted. Am I normal?

[Ne9ehr]

I wanna be mole*ted and used by a man

[TheorionMage]

What EVER gave you the idea that 'normality' was/is healthy?
And WHO decides what is 'normal'?

In MY 'male' experience... what you describe is an underlying desire to affirm your physical baseline 'allure' sans the accompanying predictable 'script' and guilt-ridden complicity. Ever notice you can't 'tickle' yourself BECAUSE YOU are in control? You KNOW what happens next---

BEING 'objectified' solely for your physical potential, requires NO EFFORT on YOUR behalf.
You're passively 'along for the ride' while your physique is being exploited for its natural capacity...
possibly compelling you to experience tactile sensory stimulation you've been guilt-shamed experiencing earlier in your development.

Perhaps you've a nascent 'Submissive' fetish. The Japanese repressive society features a unique 'kink' fetish combining recorded public humiliation, non-consensual public molestation foreplay taken to physical climax on crowded public transit called 'Chikan',

Those victim-ized bear no overt responsibility for initial complicity until their animal arousal brings them to concupiscent 'surrender' to participation.
As this is commercially 'cosplay'-ed fantasy, the real world elements of potential pregnancy and sexually-transmitted diseases are not portrayed as being addressed. ; )

[lightbulb27]

a little ok, too much something not right.

Apathetic is not good, lack of feelings not good.

sounds like you've been abused, put down, controlled, hurt and numbed.

get emotional help... start with God/christ, meditation, therapist to find the heart and be free, then continue with mating.

People who want to be abused, were abused and felt like that's what htey should be. That could have been passed along several generations. Doesn't mean it's good, just is and needs to be exposed and addressed so you are free of that emotional control.

[elizalikesberies]

You need mental help. I think that this is a form of self-h@rm

[NNWSSEnew]

It's called emotional disorder and emotional stress and it happened when you was younger that's not your faul. Lack of attention when you was younger don't blame yourself or even your parents someone just touched you unrighteous. Capital punishment deals with those individuals that makes you feel those ways. I apologize. Our world is working on men and women that makes youngsters feel that way when they get older.
Maybe get a big big stuffed teddy bear bigger then you.

[litty]

Having a fantasy is one thing, but being apathetic and tired of life is a sign of a mental disorder like depression or schizophrenia. I recommend you find a professional to talk to.

[20yearsolder]

There are tons of women that have the rape, molestation fantasy. It's not uncommon.

[maximumpower]

You're not normal.
You suffer from poor self esteem.
Seek counseling before it becomes a reality - something you most likely won't enjoy nearly as much.

[Alcoholic_Wannabe]

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[POSSY_HUNTER]

i mean , as long as it just remain as fantasy , never act on it , it is fine

[Guy13]

Go see a Counselor please.

[Ne9ehr]

Poor

[Guy13]

there are hotlines and you can internet search

[Sandeeppingping]

Would being molested solve the problem?

[Ironic_Method]

Yeaaaah... this isn't unusual.

[ArtemisSilver]

That's a pretty common fetish/fantasy.

[HippieVeganJewslim]

Nobody is normal. There’s no such thing.

[Jamie05rhs]

Or... you could just get a boyfriend? 🤷

[gorydetails]

No, you aren't normal.

[Waldoe]

fantasies are Normal... everyone has them.

[panamared1]

That is your kink, not a thing wrong with it