Confusing friends with benefits?

Anonymous

I just got out of a 14yr relationship, my male work friend of 3yrs started showing interest, daily good morning and good night messages with heart and kiss emojis. Said it doesn't have to be anything serious as he knows I've just come out of a relationship Decided to hook up 1 night, he said he wanted friends with benefits couple of times per month

He continued to message me daily and we saw each other at work. The emojis died off a bit and then he ignored my messages so I called him out on it and he apologised, hasn't done it since. He said that he was sorry for being blunt but he wasn't looking for a relationship, I agreed.

I went over to hang out yesterday, just hang out, no sex. He was sitting close to me and I wanted more. I was talking about how I had caught up with a male work mate for coffee, his body language changed, he moved and started checking his phone. We continued to talk and he said he that this couldn't continue as I didn't want a relationship but that he would still want me every now and again. We laughed and we're still friends when I left.

We're messaging today but it's more about work and memes

I'm really confused as to what is actually going on, I do have strong feelings for him and would consider a relationship with him

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I would consider a relationship if offered but am happy with friends with benefits.
I will speak up and step away if my feelings get worse
What I was confused about was that he was messaging all day everyday
Confusing friends with benefits?
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