I want to be under a guys leadership/headship/control /mental control. How do I deserve this?

I’ve had times where guys who wouldn’t ask me out just flirted would make me feel I was their little object. I look back and this is what I like and miss. I want marriage but I guess this is the next available best thing since I’m not good enough to ask out or marry for a guy like that who wants to rule over me or a woman.

I want to be under a guys leadership/headship/control /mental control. How do I deserve this?
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