Still wanting something who doesn’t want me and who lied to me?

It’s been a minute since we last talked and I’m still not over him… he made me feel safe then he switched up… he made it seem like he wanted something more when I wasn’t necessarily ready. He ended up wanting sex and I told him I wanted to wait until marriage but he never planned on having a relationship with me anyway.. because he said he wasn’t ready…. And it hurt.

Then I found out he’s married and she’s out of state but when I reached out to her she was acting weird and said they were close friends even though online it says he’s filing for divorce against her so I don’t know why she’s lying

All of this and I still have feelings for him and I don’t understand why

Still wanting something who doesn’t want me and who lied to me?
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