Why has this changed?

[Betwyn]

Ok.. so.. emotions.. we all have them.

Some of them are stronger then others. Some of us feel more then others.

Some of us, can put our feelings in a box. Some of us are ruled by them..

When it comes to myself, I'm often out of sync.

I don't always feel what one would expect. It is very rare that I miss someone.

Sometimes, I feel like a robot. Emotionally, everything is dull, muted.. it all seems.. far away.

Other times, I'm totally ruled be my emotions. My mind swirls on me, it's hard to calm down, to focus..

It's like I've caught fire..

But.. Empathy.. that is a little trickier.

I've always been able to know what someone is likely feeling..

To understand how and why..

But, it's more of a cold, detached, empathy.

I don't feel along with them.

I've never really been one to cry at funerals or weddings.

I've never been then type to cry at tear jerker movies..

But recently, this has all changed.

From 10-23 I can prolly count on 1 hand the number of times I cried that didn't involve physical pain.. or my own personal problems.

And yet.. in the last 2 months..

I've cried at movies.. The Guardian.. Draft Day.. Million Dollar Arm..

I've cried at the opening montages of Hockey Night in Canada..

I cried for Nathan Cirillo..

I cried for Dukey.. www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/.../...res_n_5586867.html

I'm not sure why things have changed.
I'm not sure if this should be looked at as bad, as a weakness..
Or if I should look at it as good.. as being more human..

But..
I can't help but to feel..

Broken

[justbanANNAz]

i can relate. I don't know bout u but after awhile you just get to a point where you no longer have control over occurrences like that.
before u could control it. u could either hide it or simply allow it.
at other times u said you didn't even feel it- like it wasn't in your heart.

the way i see it, something within you was trying to escape from yourself, and now that you're older, she's shining through. dont push her away. accept her.

[DreamHope]

This empathy is the compassionate kind that can lead to helping others... This is the part of the best of human nature, embrace it!

[Hans222]

It's certainly not weakness! It's better to show your emotions than to accumulate them inside you :-)
But honestly, the first thing I thought... changing moods... you aren't pregnant are you? That's one of the symptoms I think.
Or do you feel close to depression? Changing moods are also typical to a depressive state or one that comes close.

[Betwyn]

Def not preggers.. bleeding as I type.

[Hans222]

Hahaha, no need to give so many details :-)
Well I hope you'll feel better soon. If you want to "write it off you" just shoot. Listening is one of my stronger points...

[yaddayaddayadda02]

I don't think you are broken or weak. You are just living the full human experience of joy and tragedy. Accept it into your life.

[Betwyn]

If I'd always been this way, I'd get that, and that would be fine.

but why, now, at almost 24, is this happening?

Honestly, it's more then a little scary.

[yaddayaddayadda02]

What is changing in your life? Maybe you're moving into a phase of adulthood. Our bodies are on a timetable as well. Maybe your hormone levels are changing?