Because my alcoholism got that bad now. I had gone two or three days without though.. but then it came back last night and I've been doing half a bottle of rum a night.
I wanted something from the shop and didn't want to walk because driving would be safer actually.. which is fucked up in itself.
Anyway, I drove to the shop. I'm paranoid that I hit something or someone.. but I don't remember hitting anything, and I remember feeling relieved and amazed also that I had not hit anything when I pulled up back at mine. I even went out and checked my car just now and it looks fine, although it's so dark that I wouldn't be able to see blood on the tyres if it was there. I would be able to see blood on the bonnet if that was there though. I think the only reasons I got away with it was due to the time (practically no one on the road), and due to my instinctive nature.. here's the key questions though:-
- Have you had similar experiences?
- Did you remember things or forget?
- If something bad happened when you were drunk did you much remember it or have no recollection as though wiped from your memory as a subconscious attempt to repress the memory?
Whenever bad things happened to me while drunk they are what I remembered the most as soon as I woke up. I always sort of facepalm and go "Oh no what did I do?" as soon as I wake up pretty much. So I should be okay right? Just so paranoid and terrified.
I wanted something from the shop and didn't want to walk because driving would be safer actually.. which is fucked up in itself.
Anyway, I drove to the shop. I'm paranoid that I hit something or someone.. but I don't remember hitting anything, and I remember feeling relieved and amazed also that I had not hit anything when I pulled up back at mine. I even went out and checked my car just now and it looks fine, although it's so dark that I wouldn't be able to see blood on the tyres if it was there. I would be able to see blood on the bonnet if that was there though. I think the only reasons I got away with it was due to the time (practically no one on the road), and due to my instinctive nature.. here's the key questions though:-
- Have you had similar experiences?
- Did you remember things or forget?
- If something bad happened when you were drunk did you much remember it or have no recollection as though wiped from your memory as a subconscious attempt to repress the memory?
Whenever bad things happened to me while drunk they are what I remembered the most as soon as I woke up. I always sort of facepalm and go "Oh no what did I do?" as soon as I wake up pretty much. So I should be okay right? Just so paranoid and terrified.
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