Can anyone diagnose me on some mental ilness based on this?

[Anonymous]

My mind grabs any negative thing and thinks about it, I have a thought that ruins me, (surgery, medical stuff, anesthesia needles, endoscopy,) these kind of examples... when I want to start drawing or watching my favorite TV show with a positive empty relaxed mind, I just forget it and just think about the thought, I feel like there's no way to cure it since it's my brain and no one can do anything and it can just pop up anytime. It's like IL tell myself that I want to have a last thought of it so I throw it away and be comfortable and never think of it again, but I do when I wanna do something else... I can't believe how people are able to go out to malls and buy stuff and make YouTube videos and laugh without thinking of these stuff.. yes I do laugh and talk to people in class, but I still get the thoughts when I get home.. it never leaves my mind for good, people can just see a TV show about diseases and stuff, and it finishes and they'll be like moving to go shop or continue there life happy, but me, IL be like sitting and really thinking what happened and what diseases are they and think think think... I don't know how to explain how I think of it.. it st exactly like "let me think of it so it is my final time to think of it and after, I can go draw and go out and watch movies" but it doesn't work out

[Rufus335]

you sound introverted and pretty intelligent. The closest thing i can diagnose you with is early signs of depression which is based on your age. It seems like you get locked in and hooked on things that are irrelevant and in the past. You dwell on things that dont matter. Its not a bad thing its just how people like you and I think. The best ways to cope with it is to stay busy and not be alone but like you said that can't always be the case. Try searching for more meaningful active and productive hobbies than reading or learning or watching tv. Try carpentry or automotive. Things that require less thinking and more body movement will bring your minds focus to your body. Let me say the reason i said your intelligent is that you havbe the mind to think this rationally whereas a lot of people can only focus on whats right in their face. You think critically which is why im recommending doing things to distract your mind. Also i think these productive active hobbies willl bring you more joy and pleasure than tv or reading or learning which will also help keep your thoughts more positive to begin with.

you can also try yoga or meditation.

as a tip: when i start having negatvie thought i say this to myself in my head. "Im going to think positive 1...2...3" and get back to doing what i was doing. It helps a lot after some practice. And if tjhat doesn't work try thinking of something that does make you feel good. Something happy that happened to you in your life. rememebr the only reason you can feel so negative is that something positive happened in your life which skewed your reality of what is positive vs negative. this is to remind you that again something positive will come soon.

[Asker]

Thanks a lot for all this! Also, I understand if I keep my self busy, it will sure have no time to have this thought in my mind, but I always make time for it, whether it's at night or during the day.. I already know I need help because I have a Hella horrible anxiety were I can't even talk to a cashier properly... I wrote art and watching TV as just examples, yes I do not do nothing cool in my life, I already know that, this is because my mental illness is just in the way... my mind grabs what's negative and puts it in. . the first person mentioned endogenous depression.. is this true?

[Rufus335]

i dont know the difference but like i said its definitely in the depression realm.

listen man its in your head. i know all the bs excuses cuz i tell them to myself all the time but i know theyre bs and invalid. you have to keep telling yourself if you want to make a more permanent change in mentality.
stop coming up with excuses, depression is NOT a disease. i have it but unlike everyone else who thinks its a disease i dont think its a disease and cope with it much better than people taking all those drugs and shit. Its your head your mind and your thoughts were talking about. the only person who can change it is you. learn to control your own thoughts

[Asker]

Yes. . that's a therapist job... without mess tho

[Asker]

Meds

[tellmefantasies]

Why do you want to be an emotional hypochondriac?
The negative does attract easier than the positive. Think of negative thoughts as gravity. One pop, and you fall on the ground THUNK! Cos you've thunk too much. lol. You gotta want to float and not be grounded all the time.

You draw.
Draw it out. Draw all that anxiety and negativity out onto paper. Hopefully it will be cathartic.

I don't know if getting struck by disease/medical mishaps was just an example or what you are affected by the most. Here's something from that realm and artsy too. See and read. And maybe feel inspired and draw.
cafedissensus. com/.../

[Asker]

Yes it is surgery in general. ... tbg I have no idea what u said... isn't this a therapist job.. depression?

[tellmefantasies]

If a therapist can help you, good.
But I'm saying that you can self-help and use your interest in art as therapy for yourself. If that does not help, seek professional help. Internet diagnosis is only gonna make you think more.

[Asker]

Yes I just wanted too know that it's possible for a therapist to make it better... coz it's my thoughts, no one can touch it or change it.. I don't know how will they do it.. but I just wanted to make sure

[tellmefantasies]

got any better at dealing with it?

[SexyStudent]

It is called endogenous depression

[Asker]

Really? CN you tell me a bit about that.. thank u soooooo fkin much!

[SexyStudent]

The ability to be happy is actually inside the brain and is controlled by a number of chemicals called endorphins and norepinephrine serotonin etc. In order to appreciate life one must have a balance of those. Let us assume I'm just giving you an example that you don't have enough serotonin. You feel depressed no matter what good happens good day or a bad day it's always a bad day. Endogenous depression is different than situational depression. A plane crashed in 250 people were killed. Well that's not so good. But if I told you that your parents or your relatives were on the plane and all of a sudden you get depressed. That's because of the situation. Endogenous depression is depression with inside you that doesn't matter how life is going. Your depressed you look at the negative side and that is what you are describing

[Asker]

But I see that not everyday I'm like depressed and really to the limit... because I do not go out a lot when I moved to my country... I used to be in Canada were my anxiety would be deadly.. I don't know what to say.. so your saying this kind of depression is why I have this thought over and over?

[SexyStudent]

Yes I don't need to argue with you at but I understand your concern. The fact is that diagnosis is endogenous depression. There are actually medications to help you

[Asker]

I just read it on Google. . and ehhh.. I don't think I have sick thong since it's rare, and the symptoms have nothing to do with thoughts..

[SexyStudent]

Okay you don't have to believe me. But I'm right and you're wrong. Feelings generate thoughts. Forget it I told you what I thought goodbye

[Rufus335]

same page with u

[SexyStudent]

@Rufus335 thank you tell it the the guy who asked the question. He's fighting the answer

[Asker]

No I'm not. .. thanks for the time.. IL research more and probably ask another question about the meaning just to get more info. . thanks a lot

[Anonymous]

i can't.