Am I mentally ill?

[Anonymous]

Hi, guys. I'm starting to think I have mental problems, but before I go and see a psychiatrist, I want to evaluate myself, I guess. I was sexually assaulted when I was 8 years old, and although I don't have PTSD from it, it messed up my communication skills growing up, especially with men. I tried to end my life at 11. At 14, I started sneaking and drinking my parents' liquor because I was being sexually assaulted in high school. Now, at 18, I think I have problems. My parents complain about my attitude and how it changes a lot. I have a lot of thoughts running through my mind, making it difficult for me to complete my college homework. I also have a strict routine, and if it's broken, I have mental breakdowns. When my parents move my things, I have mental breakdowns. When someone touches or moves my food, I have mental breakdowns. Even when someone makes a noise I don't like, I have mental breakdowns. I also have a daily routine where I listen to music and throw a ball back and forth. If I don't follow this routine, I have a mental breakdown or become uncontrollable. It's also challenging for me to date guys. Additionally, my memory is severely impaired, and I struggle to remember things.

[CupcakeTheDestroyer]

I read about the assault and didn’t need to see more. YES you need to see a specialist. If that was never addressed or processed, you need to see someone to address that very obvious trauma.

[Staximus]

You definitely have ptsd and some other stuff. Go see a psychiatrist as soon as you can. Your parents never took you to a psychologist or psychiatrist?

[Asker]

No my parents don’t believe in it.

[Staximus]

Even after all that stuff that happened to you? They don't sound like the brightest bulbs in the Christmas tree. There are counselors and therapists that are not psychologists, too. You need to talk to somebody who really knows about this stuff. There's a lot of anger and frustration inside you and you have to relieve some of that pressure on your mind. Start exercising a lot. Swimming is best, boxing and martial arts, running, soccer, basketball, climbing stairs or hills, hiking, etc. It's a good tension relief. Also try yoga, Tai Chi, , meditation, and the Wim Hof breathing method to clear your mind. Yoga and Tai chi are forms of meditation, not just physical movements. You have to keep your mind focused and this will help you control your thoughts

[Danny_dan92]

See a psychologist

[BarryLiverstone]

Yes.