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Have you ever damn near fell into depression while in a relationship?
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i don't understand why women cry over men. i get it. we are humans with emotions and it is normal to feel hurt, but you should cry for a couple days, maybe a week, and then move on. the second i sniff out that i am dating an asshole, i kick his ass out the door. you need to respect yourself and not allow any idiot to treat you like shit out of love. you have to be indifferent and be cold if anyone treats you with disrespect. i am a very kind and warm person. i treat those who respect me with great kindness and respect. but once they cross the line and disrespect me in a grave way (i can forgive minor mistakes here and there because no one is perfect) they no longer exist for me. i will ignore them. every time they try to talk to me i will walk away or look somewhere else. i will act as if the wind is blowing every time they try to interact with me. do not ever jeopardize your health, sanity, and happiness over a stranger that is not even related to you by blood. the only time i would put in a bit more effort is if the person i was interacting with was a parent, grandparent, or my child (ren).
I do respect myself… now. Guy #1 was when i was 15. So it was hard to get away from that when i have to see him at school all the time. It was easier to escape guy 2 and 4 and i didn't allow myself to cry for more then some weeks. However, guy 3 was a 2 year relationship and i didn't know how to leave. But this was all 2019 and back. I've totally recovered.
My ex was killing my joy.
He was too dominant.
Maybe I'm not the most intelligent person, but that didn't mean he had the right to treat me as he did.
That's probably half the issue he spent so much time thinking for me, I felt trapped.
I was silly though, I was lost when we broke up and helpless when we got back together.
He knew what he was doing, it was too hard being with him.
He didn't make me want to be a better person in the end. I gave up on everything.
Thus just angered him further, but still he didn't end things. So again he made me end it, the things I said. Gosh!
I'm not proud at all. But it was necessary to ensure he doesn't return at all.
Yea i hate they we were both trapped. But we can't help that we were young and naive. All that matters is that we learned now. And yea he made you end it? I made one of my exes end it cause i couldn't bring myself to
I'll give you an example of his behaviour. I told him I suffer anxiety. I have trust issues with him since he left me when I could have died. I was prepared to work through things after he said sorry and that he had changed. Anyways he took me in his car for the first time, almost close to home in a 20mph area approaching a zebra crossing he put his foot down on the accelerator, bearing in mind this was a sports car so you could hear the car gaining speed, with that delay. Anyways boom off he went my anxiety was out of control, I screamed and acted out of complete fear.
He's never seen me like that and in all honesty I've not seen myself like that.
He triggered my worst nightmare. He thinks because he can control the car its OK but my lack of trust for him isn't about that it's about the fact that he chooses to still do it anyways. He lacks control.
He likes to push everything and every one. But never in a good way. The only person he should do that to is himself. And he never pushes for leadership it's always to find the weak spots.
Or exploitation.
He's not a good guy.
He may get results out of his team at work with that crap but it just made me lose respect, trust and put me in the afraid category.
I hate you even live near his ass
Oh I forgot to say, I have no idea where he lives. He's always moving and the last time he didn't take me to his place.
That's what he's like. But he knew where I live.
And I know what you're thinking, yes he probably did have one.
I was an idiot!
Thanks for mho x
Relationships by their very nature are awkward and messy. I was in a long distance relationship for 3 years. She put very little effort in the relationship. She told me that she loved me and we talked about marriage. Sometimes it would be months before I heard from her. She always said she was busy. I was very busy too. I majored in engineering, worked part time and had to commute to school but I still made time to write to her and found a way to scrape together airfare to fly the 1500 miles to see her.
I was miserable the whole time.
I hated being miserable as well. Im glad you're away from here
I've only ever had one ex, but after giving her trust and the benefit of doubt over and over again I realised that she didn't want me, just didn't want to let me go until she found someone better. I was some puppy following her around that she could toy with.
Sorry you had all those guys who didn't treat you right, it's good to hear you got through all of that. I'm not even recovered from one and it's been years so you've really done well to bounce back from all that. Good on you and best wishes.
Wow she used you like her puppet. Thats just wrong. And yea i dealt with the BS in 2009/10 and 2016-19. But things are so much better now
So happy to hear that you're doing much better. You're amazing for going through all that!
Thank you. You’re amazing as well despite how she treated you
Thank you I really appreciate that ☺️
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Unfortunately, yes.
I didn't recognize who she was at her core. Crazy for someone I dated for three years right? She was from Europe and I was from the U. S. It wasn't until she cheated on me during COVID that I finally was able to see everything for what it was; a toxic, emotionally manipulative relationship. I was used for what I could provide; money, looks, emotional stability, personality and so much more I won't bore you with here. I was her ideal partner.
She only cheated on me because she had to go back to Europe just shy of COVID and got stuck there. When I found out from a good friend of mine down there, she tried to convince me it was because I wasn't there and that women everywhere do the same sort of thing.
Told her I loved her, but that the trust was broken and broke up.
I felt immensely at peace and extremely 'light' after the fact. Sorta deep inner happiness/peace that is hard to explain. Don't get me wrong, I loved her. I missed her. Her presence, laugh, etc. for a few months after. But I ain't got time for no backstabbing, manipulative, lying people-- not in a friendship, and certainly not in a relationship.
In short, during the relationship, starting around the 2nd year, I was tense, on edge. In a word, stressed. I never could put my finger on the why until we broke up. She weighed me down with the toxicity in that relationship. I honestly just wish I could have seen it sooner. Feels so obvious now.
I can say yes, Depression is a disease just like any other, like Cancer it can be treated and go away but no guarantees it won't come back.
With my ex I was numb, to the point I felt nothing... I could not let myself feel anything. Men are raised not to cry, so never cried just held it all in.
I didn't even really realize it back then either, when I left. It was like a burden lifted off me and the depression faded. It rears its ugly head now and then but I can handle it better these days.
In my current relationship, we have our struggles, some things can trigger depression but we work through them.
Yea i cried so much with Mr Dos that i became robotic and numb like you did. And yea i hope y'all work things out
Mr 1 was born the culprit. He imprinted you with the abuse. This sets a bad stage.
My Ms 1 cheated with my friends, was a liar and manipulator for kicks, talked about me behind my back. She dumped me. Imprinted me with low self esteem. Then I went out and started dating the same types of girls. Took me years to even begin to figure out what happened and try to get over it.
I hate her now. She got knocked up. Became a single mom and is now on the third husband. I’m obviously not that trashy. And she couldn’t hang. That’s why she put me through a humiliating break up.
It’s narcissistic abuse. Love bombing, devaluation, discard. The pattern repeats and you keep meeting narcissists until you can break the cycle. I had to do therapy and self care to get over it.
Yep Mr 1 impregnanted my friend. Was a manipulator and laughed in my face when i called him out. He even used to slip the condom off during sex so i eventually just let him go raw. Luckily i didn't date the same types but each was bad in their own way. But damn you had to do therapy? I just had to get with someone better than the last. Only thing is, i finally took a year to myself. It helped with finding self love
I’m glad you could work things out
Took lots of prayer and self control but yea
Good question I think I actually did about 11 years ago well 12 or 13 years ago now I was going through a divorce I ended up beginning a bad drinking habit that took me on a spiral for about 8 years I was homeless in Houston Texas I was homeless in Dallas Texas I got arrested in Dallas for public intoxication I ended up having a warrant for my arrest out of Houston for child support all my child support paid now but I was arrested for child support I got out of Harris county jail in about 5 days I checked myself into a rehab for a year and now I've been sober now for almost 11 years January the 10th of 2010 is when I actually have my last drink so yes I have not almost I did,
Im glad you went to rehab. Stay sobed
*sober
On two separate occasions. One I got over pretty quickly because I don’t think I was truly in it. I think I just wanted it to work out so badly I was willing to pretend I didn’t see the millions of red flags.
Another messed me up for years. Not enough to say I was hitting boarder line depression but enough to have me avoid everything and everyone.
Yea we all pretend not to see red flags when we’re in love
Agree with the flags, to quote Bojack horseman - it's hard to spot the red flags when you're seeing the world through rose tinted glasses (when you're in love everything is rosy)
@JustinTimberlegs thats a good quote
I was married for 22 years to a woman who was a good wife and a great mother. We put so much time into raising our kids we forgot about us. Never fought. And when i started to get depressed i thought it was cuz my kids were becoming independent and didn't rely on me as much when in fact it was because i had more time to see that i was living with a buddy and realized our marriage was over
Dang was she not being physically romantic with you anymore?
That last sentence of “living with a buddy” told me all i needed to know
Thank you :)
Yep. I was actually scrolling through my old texts with my ex. And he said some horrible stuff to me. Some things to triggering to say on a social media platform. I have texts to my friends saying that he made me cry and I literally am either going to kill him. Or kill myself.
3 months away from that relationship!
I’m glad you got out
No I'm used to being alone and I look for people who fit in my life, if it works great if it doesn't I don't lose anything. I've never hurt myself to be with someone and I don't plan on doing that either.
Sometimes I wonder if the fact that I'm so used to being alone makes it harder to be in a relationship because I'm willing to sacrifice less than a lot of people probably would because they're more scared of losing someone than me. But it's a difficult question to answer so I just leave it at a thought ^^
When I was younger I was way more infatuated but bak then I was more confused and scared and socially awkward and it never worked out but now it's a lot harder for me to really fall in love. I don't know why exactly.
Im just thankful for my mid twenties. I grew so much
Yeah I was in a relationship with a girl that I loved sine high school and after a few year we got together everything was going great but I lost her because of my job, I was working many hours and I was feeling bad because I didn't have time for her. I couldn't let go of my Jon either because I was helping my brothers with their tuition. After a year we broke up , I saw her a few months ago now she's happily married with 2 kids
Whats a jon?
Oh job nvm
I've been abused by every partner in some way but this one so far. Haven't met a single one willing to be with just me. Hurts like hell
Well hopefully she's the one
No I've never suffered from depression while in a relationship, the only time I did fall victim to depression was long before my first relationship. So it wasn't an issue by the time I started dating.
For me, two of the guys were extra stress along with my job. So it was extremely overwhelming. But im just glad i overcame the troubles
Thats what im saying 🤣 Like its just not worth it. Life is too good to return to old crap
No I haven’t. But I have felt sad and lost and my world is falling apart. I’m sorry you’ve felt like that and I hope you’ll find the right person
Thank you :) i believe i will and i think uou will as well if you haven't already
I've been depressed since I was 12, relationship or no.
I hope you overcome girly. Keep fighting 🙏
I’m on meds so that helps some but it’s still there
I was only in one relationship back in high school, but I was happy with her, until she wanted to break up 3 weeks later.
Did she at least have a good reason
Looking back on it now, it sounds like she wanted to see other people.
Until I reconnected with my lady. It took me a while to heal from my ex. Hell, I still don’t think I have healed completely. Lol.
But you’re almost there :)
ex nearly made me an alcoholic.. killed me emotionally, physically and mentally
I hope youve recovered
Slowly…
I’ve been there.. glad you left those relationships
Same. Do you feel stronger now as well?
Definitely
Yes. I have actually been depressed in relationships. It is important to speak your truth and stick up for yourself. I learned the hard way that if you don’t you can have a panic attack.
Yea i had a panic attack when dating 2 of the 4 above. But im so much better after them. Theyre only like 25% of the relationships i’ve had 🤣
I’m so glad you were able to come out on top. 🥰
Thank you :)
If you had 4 seriously abusive relationships back to back, then you have one big problem to solve with yourself.
If you had 4 seriously abusive relationship but not back to back, at your age, you have another but different big problem.
They were not back to back. But they were at ages 24 and before. Since i turned 25+, life has been better.
I have. I don’t think that being in a relationship changes the fact that you have depression or anxiety. For me I’m happy when we’re together but when we’re not there are moments that I get sad
Yea but I've never experienced that sadness while single. Only when trapped
If you are feeling trapped by them than you are not in the right relationship. For me if I feel trapped it’s because of my parents and college
Yea i noticed those were toxic so im not in them now
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