Help me with a Psychological question?

[Anonymous]

I have a habit of making up stories in my mind to pass time. And also talk to myself and have conversations. *Don't judge me, it's how I have kept my sanity all these years. And yes, I did take years of therapy and no it didn't work. I have my own methods so leave it be.*
Anyways.

It's happened for a few years now. Everytime I begin to think to myself or start to make a story... I always begin with some question or word that's out of line with what I was going to say.

I'll say, "what's wrong?", "Are you ok?", "NO!", "Why?".
And other things along those lines.

Now that's write this... I feel kinda stupid, cause it just made me realize what it is...

But regardless, I'm fine. Uh, for the most part I mean.
Though I do sometimes feel Im not me, like me, my mind, and my body all have different minds. 😮‍💨🤦🏽‍♀️ I feel like I'm not explaining anything well at all...

Does anyone understand anything I'm saying?

[abc3643]

I believe so. It's called the theory of the bicameral mind, I think.

In fact, two of the most critical scenes in HBO's Westword occur when the first host (robot), named Dolores, begins to realize that she's talking to herself and that she has consciousness and awareness.

First is this scene (*) in which Dolores is having a conversation (in her mind) with her creator, Arnold. It is from the first season, 9th episode.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V6oqEq6rE_U

Second is this scene which is again with Arnold... or is it? This is from the 10th episode of the first season and is titled "The Bicameral Mind".

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LogKL26Snsk

(Look closely at Dolores' clothes...)

(*) This is an extended scene with the lead-in part helps give context. Westworld is a bit complicated, but Bernard Low is a robot who assists Dr. Ford, who created Westworld, in running it. Westworld was co-created by Arnold Weber who was trying to create consciousness in the robots. He realized this was actually terrible - he'd be creating a slave class - so he had Dolores kill him 34+ years earlier. Bernard Low is an anagram of Arnold Weber and is a robot built by Ford to replace Arnold.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i7lrjIKkMSQ

[abc3643]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S94ETUiMZwQ

[horsenrhinounicorn]

Don’t feel stupid about it. Why? Because you are being you and there is nothing better than you getting to be yourself, you have talent that others don’t have. Life is full of questions and finding the answers is an achievement. You asked a question. Why? So you can collect opinions, possibly find other like minded people and see things from someone else’s perspective. Curiosity develop’s knowledge and knowledge when put to proper use develops wisdom. Your curiosity will allow you to continue getting smarter. You have a very similar mindset to many movie producers. You may have a higher than average IQ. Often times people with higher IQ may not communicate well because the expectation is that everyone else would be smart enough and have enough clues to be able to know what you are talking about. Hanging out with people who accept you will help you to have a better understanding of people who think in grammarly structured thinking. Find your talent and run with it. The other perspective can be pondering the response from that other individual, the abhorrence of silence,
the nervousness or anxiety for the opposing persons upcoming words.
Does this relate to you or shall we continue searching the galaxies until we find the matter. Do you like suspense or prefer simplicity? Do you prefer a verbal response from others or just respect? None of these questions require answers, but trigger different thoughts and offer different perspectives.

[Anonymous]

This is the way some people think and process is to verbalize, kind of having an aloud conversation with yourself. I do that sometimes. Nothing wrong with it. Don't let others judge you.

[andy530]

This is called self talk and is very normal