Whats Going On?

[Anonymous]

I suffered a lot of sexual abuse between ages 2 and 13, growing up I had derealization episodes every once in a while but back then I was able to just ignore it and it went away. After I was about 12-13 I stopped having them until recently. I'm 20 now and a few months ago I was at a fair and all the sudden a really intense derealization episode popped up, I was much more intense than i remember and i about lost it and had a meltdown because I was so disoriented from it. I've been having them again like I was, but they never scared me like they do now. I'm not taking medications of any kind so its not a side effect of one and Im not being abused anymore. Why is this happening again all the sudden and seemingly at random?

[MaKa_newbie]

I've been through same aged 4/5-13 so I know what you go through. Those are probably just bad flashbacks/memories and of course you feel like you're living it again. It is probably PTSD. I've also never been on medication or went to a proffesional, never even told anyone what happened (besides my boyfriend who know it happened but not who, when and how).
But, just a stupid advice... try to learn to live with it. Try to tell yourself there is nothing you could do then, you were just a child. Give that child in you some comfort and hug it.
You will always remember it, but for your own good, try to live with it. Maybe try to talk to someone about it, maybe that will help you. It doesn't have to be a proffesional, maybe friend or someone you really trust with it.
If you need anythink, I am here for you. ❤️

[wheist9095]

I think that just how post-traumatic stress disorder works, it flares up at random times in your life and I think if you could see a psychiatrist that would be best, it's not the type of thing that you can ignore or try and handle on your own and have very much success with.