How to stop sabotage?

hey gag,

I need some advice. For 3 years, i used adderall that I didn’t need, wasn’t prescribed it, don’t have adhd or anything but i used it because i thought it could help with losing weight. During the 3 years, it was hell. i made a lot of mistakes, it made me mentally unstable and i was losing common sense. i gained weight, spent money i shouldn’t have spent, lost relationships and overall was not productive and i was very depressed. It was like my soul was taken away. it’s been a year since i stopped adderall completely and my life has turned around 360 degrees. i still punish myself for even using adderall in the first place and i want to treat myself better and im asking how i can do that? how can i stop beating myself up for using adderall. When i googled adderall, it even states that adderall has a negative and a complete opposite affect if the person doesn’t need to take adderall. thoughts?
How to stop sabotage?
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