How can I stay motivated for gym?

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long story, i started working out again. i lost over 150 pounds about 10 years ago and over the last three years, i gained about 100 pounds. During these 3 years, i unfortunately did drugs that im proud of to say i don’t do anymore and because i don’t do drugs anymore, my mindset is back. But being my normal self again, im blown away that i actually gained this much weight. It’s been a year since i stopped using drugs and my life is a lot better but it has taken up until yesterday to start working out again. i’ll admit, i wanted to work out again but i was embarrassed of how big i got, and it was a mental game. i did my first real workout yesterday and i feel great, i do have obviously some things i used to do easily that i struggled with but im trying to keep it up. i’ve eaten better over the last few months and now that im more comfortable and feel lighter, i started going today and yesterday. i do have a goal weight but i wanted to ask how i can stay motivated without sabotaging myself which is something i always do. a lot of my clothes i can’t fit into anymore which is a huge blow to my self esteem and just general aura. how can i stay motivated so i don’t sabotage?
How can I stay motivated for gym?
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