What keeps you awake at night?

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Anonymous · Accepted Answer

Loneliness and longing. It feels like every night I go to bed alone gets worse than the last. I don't even remember what it feels like to kiss and cuddle anymore it's been over four years since I have and worse it was one of the only times I ever have, and it was awful. Don't lose your V card in a one night stand you will regret it.

There are a lot of reasons I'm completely fucked but I've given up on ever having a family which pretty much was all I really wanted out of life. I just don't see the point in life anymore when I don't see any way to change it.

My financial situation alone is a death nail in the dating coffin. If I dumped every spare penny, I had into dating, I could go out maybe 2-3 times a month. Maybe 4-5 but only if my date paid her own way. That's pretty uncommon and the expectation is there not to mention social pressure.

It just feels hopeless as bad as my finances are now, they're getting even worse and I'm worried now that soon I might not have any income at all. It just feels hopeless. I'm almost thirty I have nothing to show for myself and no accomplishments to be proud of and I have no friends, and I've never had a real girlfriend before in my whole life. I just don't see any light at the end of the tunnel, so I just sit there feeling lonely and trying to fall asleep before I start crying.

I'm unbelievably touch starved. The last three hugs I've had nearly made me break down in tears because I get touched so little. I get 1 MAYBE 2 hugs a month from family members. That's it, that's all the touch I get nothing else. I don't even give a fuck about sex at this point I just want someone to hold me and kiss me at this point.

I'd pay for a hug if I could do it without looking like a creep. Obviously, nobody is going to be comfortable when someone asked to buy a hug, they're just going to look at you with either pity or like your gross or a threat. I feel lonely and hopeless every night and just try to scrape by one day at a time enough to keep myself from completely losing my mind and snapping and doing something to myself.

I just don't see the point in anything anymore. All I wanted was a family but it's unrealistic to think that will ever happen for me. If I'm just always going to be alone and never have anyone to share my life with and just be a jaded lonely old man, my whole life then I really have nothing to live for once my mom and dad are gone.

I just sit in my apartment all day playing video games and living in denial of my life. My whole world is basically a computer desk and a TV. My only friends are voices on a microphone I have non to speak of in real life and I'm just so tired I want to be done. I have tried too I've tried for 20 years to build friendships/relationships. All I've gotten at every turn is abuse neglect, used or just ignored.

I'm done. two decades is enough I'm tired of breaking my heart over and over and I'm scared to even ask a girl out because at this point my nerves and trust issues with woman have hit a point where a no would make me break down in tears on the spot and that would just feel pathetic and humiliating. I just want to give up on trying to date but that just means instead of heartbroken I'm just miserable and lonely.

Thats what keeps me up every single night.

D_Bone_Steak · Accepted Answer

Sometimes I have nightmares... they're fucking scary. Sleep paralysis fucks me up at times. I don't like spooky ass ghost shit, demons, or aliens fucking up my sleep like that. Responding with anger instead of fear has helped, but responding with just letting it happen just makes it worse... and fuck the fucking retards that suggested that shit.

You asked and that's my real shit.

7Phoenix7 · Accepted Answer

My thoughts about the past... the present and future.  Sometimes good thoughts that have me all excited. Sometimes worries that give me anxiety.

IslaTheWitch · Accepted Answer

my thoughts and emotions... sometimes a good book :D

CeramicsandMusic · Answer

The fear of never experiencing the love and validation I yearn for from a woman. I’ve dreamt about it for as long as I can remember, even before I knew what a romantic relationship really was. I lose sleep over thinking that I’ll never know what it’s like to be loved and desired for who I am; to never feel what it’s like to be pursued by someone I’m really attracted to; to not have a woman tell me I’m enough for her, that I’m all she’ll ever need and has ever wanted, that I’m a source of joy, pride, excitement, reprieve, and safety in her life, that I awaken something natural and primal deep within her; that I’ll never experience her telling me these things with her voice, her eyes, her hands, and her body, and hear it whispered in my ears as I fall asleep, or told to me in between kisses when I first wake up. That’s really what keeps me up at night.

PeachyPie93 · Answer

Thinking about the last few guys I liked and how they didn't like me the same.. and how much it hurt to see the last guy I dated dating my friends friend. Plus thinking I'm getting older and probably never gonna find the love of my life.. I don't know why that stuff bothers me so much, but so many times I can't sleep because that shit pops inside my head.

EmmaMary · Answer

At the moment I think you'll probably already know my answer. How about your goodself @thegreenyogi xxx

Tarifa · Answer

Things that are impossible to obtain, so I decided to stop worrying about them. Other than that, there isn't much that will keep sleep away.

Purpleronnie · Answer

Nothing … I sleep like a log generally.  I can wake up during the night for the obvious things that would alert anyone but they are not in anyway frequent apart from when nature calls.

Simslover92 · Answer

Let's see... Work My ex Worrying about my family Worrying about money

unknowngurll1212 · Answer

overthinking , scrolling social medias , listening to music...

exitseven · Answer

this damn thing,

douride2 · Answer

If I knew that I wouldn't be awake in the middle of the night. I have no idea. I wake after about 5 hrs sleep then my mind goes into overdrive thinking of nothing.

HawkPerception · Answer

Stress, thoughts about what I have to do, what responsibilities I need to take care of, things I want to remember, etc

NewestOdium · Answer

Wondering if I am a good enough man for everyone in my life. Wishing I could change the unchangeable.  I just pray for the strength to keep going every day as it's always a new day.

Friendlybro79 · Answer

Sometimes just the state of the world. It's getting concerning to me how our political leaders are turning our own allies against us. It's not an every day thing. b

MannMitAntworten · Answer

Lately … layers upon layers of stressors. GAG is merely a mental diversion that eventually puts me to sleep.

OneViewpoint · Answer

The local coyote pack when they make a deer kill. The noise goes on for hours

Nikki1989 · Answer

Insomnia. Sleep meds don't even work.

fish5505_87 · Answer

lots of stuff, alway's changing, I guess that a good thing, otherwise I would be awake and bored. Mostly the future.

Dnice1 · Answer

Thoughts, video games, feeling lonely and craving cuddles

Zoe04 · Answer

Silence I like having window open hearing cars going by helps me.

elTAHAwy · Answer

I don't know but I can't wake till it is a certain time

Staximus · Answer

Looking at old cars online that I shouldn't buy

Jeff51 · Answer

To be honest. A woman here on gag but not anymore.

QuietRunner · Answer

This guy

Dreamclouds · Answer

I wish something would but I am so tired all the time I fall like a meteorite in bed

LAWoman2000 · Answer

Any for of light from clock to tv. And. Notifications.

NathanDavis · Answer

what doesn't... lol

RageBabe · Answer

Intrusive thoughts.

elizamichale1 · Answer

My job n anticipation of clients

Valdemort · Answer

Mainly thoughts

4ngelic · Answer

the state of the world now

Sunrising · Answer

If I have a light on !

NicholasRedone · Answer

If I had too much sugar :( ❤️

alice55 · Answer

i m just not tired

jahaims · Answer

Auhd brain doesn't shut off

Nik1hil · Answer

Lately I am sick, So fever affects me 🙃

DrPepper12 · Answer

Insomnia 😴 🤣

Apple1996 · Answer

My kids lol

lorenzomichael · Answer

Sometimes the barking fucking Chihuahua next-door.

Jay-_- · Answer

Thoughts and someone I have feelings for. 😒

RedInnocent69 · Answer

The anxiety of things that need to be done

gintare_764 · Answer

My boyfriend and his penis.

dougeats · Answer

The presidency here in the US

MemeSupreme · Answer

too many things

Account · Answer

My worries.

jamesgoldman · Answer

The economy

Agape93 · Answer

Nightmares

msg321 · Answer

Stress

es20490446e · Answer

Zenned OS.

wkhan_87 · Answer

Stress and anxiety

Uglygaypoorcoward94 · Answer

Nothing

rizzzz007 · Answer

Overthinking

PeterLegg91 · Answer

Insomnia

Anonymous · Answer

Cockroaches crawling all over me.

PaleDale · Answer

Honestly horniness

Eempriyanka · Answer

Boredom

masterSir · Answer

The hornies

Anonymous · Answer

Caffeine

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