I'm not skinny, but I'm not fat. Anyone else feel this way/in this situation?

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So I'm not skinny, but I'm not fat.

I'm 22 and I'm 130 pounds. I don't exercise and I'm not toned or anything, so I do feel fat often. I have a bit of a gut, and my thighs giggle etc.

My sister was blessed with a thin, lean, and toned body. She doesn't work out, and she has a completely flat stomach, and her thighs have that gap that is so desirable (but impossible for many girls) etc etc.

I eat healthy for the most part (I definitely do eat things I shouldn't (like processed cheese sometimes and I like my wine once a week).

But I try hard with the food I eat and I try small portions and things low fat and low cal, fresh and natural etc.

My mom and my youngest sister are also tiny.

A) I would like to know why I'm the "fat" one of the family

B) Why it takes me 1000% more effort to get no results and to not be anywhere near their sizes.

I hate it. I hate feeling like the big one of the family. I don't even know what to do.

I have worked out before. I did the insanity workout and I was acheiving great results but my family would stand around watching me work out, and take pictures because I looked funny and they'd laugh and it resulted in me quitting working out. (I can't afford the gym to save my life)

I feel ugly and hopeless.
I'm not skinny, but I'm not fat. Anyone else feel this way/in this situation?
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