My husband has done some sketchy shit and I can’t move on. I keep thinking about it. He has downloaded tinder but said he Un-downloaded it immediately thinking he was being stupid but he didn’t do anything with it.
I saw it on iTunes history that’s how I know. He has payed for pornhub premium when I was pregnant but said he didn’t even use it for the 5 months he had it, said he got it and forgot about it which is what he does with other subscriptions too sometimes.
There just seems to be a convenient explanation for everything making him look less bad.
I believed him when he told me this stuff yet I keep thinking about it long after it happened so It definitely still bothers me.
I know you’re supposed to forgive in relationships and not being hung up old stuff but I really feel like I missed my chance to address it when it came up- I just accepted what he told me. I don’t know if it’s because I don’t want to accept that he’s not very trustworthy, or if he’s just made some mistakes and I should calm down. He hasn’t doesn’t anything since but I fear he’s just gotten better at hiding it.
I don’t really know how to talk to him about it since it all happened a while ago. Past is past.
Since reading that a lot of men cheat when they are married I just feel like I got stuck with one who does and that he isn’t the ideal I thought he was, which is extremely painful for me. My ideal of him was really only bare minimum. They really don’t seem like big horrible things, but those things really broke my trust. I feel like I need to decide to forgive and move on, or leave if I’m not going to ever trust him again.
