5 Reasons Why I Hate My Life...Would You Feel the Same Way in My Position?

[awesometjgreen]

⚠ no I don't want attention or pity I just want thoughts, let's begin

1) Odd One Out

Can't help but notice that no matter where I go or who I'm around I'm always the weird awkward one. I seriously believe I'm the only 19 year old that's not partying and drinking every night.

You know what? Fuck you guys!🖕

2) Genetics

Whenever I walk I have to slightly trip or bump into something. I can never walk at the right speed; I'm either walking to fast, or too slow. Im short for a guy and I'm struggling to figure out how to pay for basic fixes like braces and clear skin. My hair is shit because I can wear an afro but people just make fun of me and my face gets all greasy, and I still haven't found a better hairstyle other than a man bun.

Most likely natural selection trying to get rid of me 😣

3) Family

I'm really starting to hate dealing with my family because they are the main ones that fuel my anger and literally put me on the verge of becoming a Misogynist, here's why. I live in a feminine controlled household (I'm the oldest boy or man I guess). The women in the house think that just because I'm a boy that means I'm a potential rapist or a pervert so my sister will for example: call my niece downstairs if I'm upstairs or do stupid shit like Hold her robe down if I'm in the room. My mom basically understands this but she doesn't say anything about it and instead tells me not to, "leave the room" Or "stay away from your niece" 😤. So basically I can't even piss or shit at night without someone watching me like I'm a criminal just because I was born with a penis😑

Damn straight! I hate all these fuckers, can't wait to move.

4) Lack Of Support

Everything I do is wrong or isn't right. I get a job, instead of being happy my mom yells about filling out college applications because she wants me to, "make something out of my life" 😑 she thinks that just because I'm black or that I didn't immediately start college that I'm gonna be a statistic or just not go😑. That's utterly fucking stupid because I'm only waiting to pick a school and I need money for the essentials or else I'll basically be a hobbo driving to campus with mommy every morning. I have no idea why she thinks having a job would make me dump all of my dreams of getting a masters in film, business, English, and political science, but she does 😑.

Sometimes I think I'd be better on my own. Oh wait I forgot I can't 😣.

5) I'm stuck

I think I mentioned this earlier but yeah I'm stuck. Can't move out and can't go anywhere because of lack of money (or friends to even attempt staying with), I can't make friends because I'm too weird and awkward, I can't even improve myself in the most critical areas because I'm too broke 😑. The most I can do is buy some new clothes but even that is difficult. I'm looking into getting a bench set so I can lift but according to my mom that's not as important as school 😑

Thanks for reading and again, I don't want sympathy or attention I just want your thoughts. How would you fair in my shoes? Do you have a shit family? Share with me

[Jjpayne]

That sounds tough man... I have the same feelings that you do. My parents met in psych ward and my mom is stressed out and nervous all the time and my dad is currently thinking about suicide, some families are messed up man... and It's messed up that people think you are a rapist in your house, that sucks man. But hey, I did not party or drink at that age either. But I think you just need to get out of the house, maybe get a job and meet some new people. I think you really need another person in your life, a group of friends you can see outside the home at least. But bold and strong MyTake!!!

[Jjpayne]

Thanks for the MHG!!! :)

[Anonymous]

Now that you've vented out, I hope that makes to feel better. It's time to gather more positives, count your blessings and move forward.

[Secretgardenblood]

Good job

[awesometjgreen]

Thank you

[LeoMessiAndre]

okay.