The power trio has struck again. Or as I like to call them, the Funtimes Trio. Nah, just kidding.
Before I start, I'd like to quickly define each of these 3 so you don't get confused.
Introvert- "People who are introverted tend to be inward turning, or focused more on internal thoughts, feelings and moods rather than seeking out external stimulation."
Shyness- "being reserved or having or showing nervousness or timidity in the company of other people."
Social Anxiety- "A chronic mental health condition in which social interactions cause irrational anxiety."
Alright, now that I have gotten things cleared up, let's talk about my struggles, because thats fun (☞ ͡ ͡° ͜ ʖ ͡ ͡°)☞
1. It's extremely hard to talk to people
Wow, thats not surprising. But seriously though, it is. Imagine that scenario where you're at Subway and you're rehearsing what you're about to order. Then the person asks you what you want, but you're so nervous that you fumble your words and say "I'd eat a sub ball meat with lettuce on the.. Uh... Thing. "
Thats basically me on a regular basis.
2. My brain is in nonstop Party Mode
Lol, sleep, whats that? My brain doesn't rest, even my dreams have some crazy crap going on. Since I'm a super quiet person, I keep all my thoughts in my head. Majority is just weird crap, but I'm also worrying about how I appear to people, if said something right and even monitoring my movements. And I have piles PF rough drafts of hypothetical conversations and yes, I have drafts of good comebacks that I never used when the time was right. *sigh*
3. I have an extra dislike for group projects
group projects are hard enough, but imagine having the Funtimes Trio residing in your brain HQ. I usually get 3 types of groups; The other quiet kids that never talk to you;The obnoxious and loud kids that exclude you and talk crap about how you're not contributing vocally; Or you get to be with your friends. Guess which one I get majority of the time. 😆
4. The Pity Conversationists
These people mean well, I guess, but they get on my nerves. You're alone in the corner at a social event. They walk over to you with a superficial smile and try to break the ice with you. Ok, fine. But they have this odd vibe about them. They raise their voice like they're talking to a child and they never. Stop. Smiling. "This poor thing is all alone! I'll talk to them! "
5. Encountering people that don't understand
"Why don't you just try to talk more?"
WOW, Its as if people just don't get it. You think I would be making this take if talking to people for me is easy? I get shaky ans sweaty when approaching people. And to make things worse, my brain fumbles up my words, so I end up being embarrassed and distancing myself even more.
6. People romanticize having social anxiety/shyness
Seriously, stop. there's nothing cute about it. Not all quiet girls look like they stepped out of Pinterest with their fake hipster glasses, oversized sweater and pile of book the read in Starbucks.
That's it for now. Maybe I'll do a part 2.¯\_(ツ)_/¯