A Dizzy Desi Was Born

[DizzyDesii]

#GAGSymposium Shoutout to @smahala1991 for this creative idea

A Dizzy Desi was born in February
My mom said the birth was painfully scary
She choked my dads hand
At least back then he took it like a real man

A Dizzy Desi was born with glee
But They split when i was three
My grandma broke them up
So that she could be
The only caregiver for my mom and me
and i found that pretty evil
But because my dad gave in
I despise him
And how he left my mom layin all fetal man

A Dizzy Desi was born to her womb
But i had to make room
Because she changed on me
It all felt 5 years too soon
Men were in and out of her life
She did anything to try to become a wife
She got pregnant first
And he too, left her on site
And although He wasn't right
she took it out on me
Forgetting i was there
Catering to her next man
But mom, what about me, you, and sissy

A Dizzy Desi was born in the 90s
And man back then
I was already searchin for a lover
didn't care for another friend
I felt ready for love
I was planning my babies
I wanted my first kiss
While i myself was rockin diaper gravy

A Dizzy Desi was born near Valentines Day
Maybe thats why love led me astray
Maybe thats why guys called me cray
Maybe thats why with my heart they played
But til this day
I still wanna be someones bae
Ion wanna end up like my mom these days

A Dizzy Desi was born as an Aquarius
Still never got with that sagittarius
Instead got a capricorn named darius
Some say horoscopes are hilarious
But they define me
Even though the traits are various
Man it all sounds a little precarious

A Dizzy Desi was born in Mississippi
Where some people seemed hippie
Others were tipsy
But i was weirder than a gyspy
Still watchin teletubbies
Dancin like dipsy
The people here love to gossip
*Sips tea*

A Dizzy Desi was born to shine
And i did throughout my years
I was a nerdy birdy on the grind
A classmate
A teachers pet
Ready to graduate
top of the class
Only to end up second best

And sometimes there was the rain
It Rained down on all my fears
I lost my virginity
I found so many tears
I called it pressure as i screamed
I was just 15
My thinking wasn't clear
And I regretted it til this day
but finally forgave myself in 2018
yet i still pray

Hate to put myself on the frontier
But i Returned to celibacy
For 9 whole years
Tried to make it to marriage
But still didn't take it there
And now here i stand
Wondering if ill ever get the ring
And the carriage
Cause i gave the first half to my first man
And the last to my current king
Who i hope will spread my heritage

I just wanna be happy in life
I just wanna be a mom
I just wanna be a wife
I just want my mom to be herself again
I just want her to stop using me
I just want her to stop depending on men
I dont just wanna have a lover
I wanna have a husband
I just wanna have neverending friends
I just wanna have my dreams begin again

#FeelFreeToList #ADesiWasBorn

[Jjpayne]

That was amazing!!! You put a lot of time and effort into that!!! Great work Desii!!! And I felt your pain and struggle as I read it. Thank you for sharing your life with us!!

[DizzyDesii]

you're welcome :)

[Jjpayne]

Thank you for the MHO!!! and I hope we get another writing challenge this was fun!

[GoodGuyBreakingBad]

Very well written MyTake of yours. I'm also Aquarius
and was born Feb 9th , 1968. Happy New Year have a
Blessed one :):) Thanks for sharing with us :):)

[GoodGuyBreakingBad]

I was suppose to be a Valentines Day baby but was born Feb 9th instead.

[DizzyDesii]

Happy new year to you too :)

[GoodGuyBreakingBad]

Thank You :)

[GoodGuyBreakingBad]

Thank You For MHO :)

[Máiiréad]

Managed to write about your life and regrets, rhyme, and put humor in it too. Congrats dude.

[DizzyDesii]

Haha i try

[Jaximus-Lion]

Stay strong, stay safe. Thanks for sharing your pain, i can't say i relate but i do understand where you come from. I salute you

I survived a vicious society but my family is my rock. We had a very abusive community when it came to being different , in our case it was being a christian family in a muslim country. This is why am so kind giving friendly guy and try to have fun all the time because of the pain of the past that i can't forget because it has been 20 years of my life.
If you need yet another friend! Am here.

[DizzyDesii]

Even though we’ve been through pain, im glad we’ve come out better people in the end :)

[Jaximus-Lion]

The pain is a reminder, to see how far we came, and how much we did and how much more we can du.

[Jaximus-Lion]

Not du i mean DO

[Lov2PlezUgurl]

This was.. happy it was sad and it was hard for you to write I know you shed some tears... Again.. you've had to fight your whole life to get what you have but it seems that you found it... What so many of us never find it's the love that you've found that's made you whole again
Thank you for sharing

[DizzyDesii]

Thank you :) and no i haven't found it 🤣 me and that current king broke up a good while back 😂

[Lov2PlezUgurl]

Okay dizz you have to tell me what happened you can't tell us this story and at the end don't even tell us what that you broke up just throw it out there like oh we're not together anymore what happened to the love of your life sweetheart

[DizzyDesii]

He changed after he thought he got me pregnant

[Lov2PlezUgurl]

Changed how

[DizzyDesii]

Siad he wasn't ready when he spent the whole first year lying saying he was. Like he basically started to fall back after he finally lost his virginity to me. And he started crushing on a coworker.

[t-8900]

This was really good Desi.
lots of heart break, lots of disappointment, I can relate so much to this in many ways. maybe that's why we've become friends! <3
I don't know anything about Zodiacs but I was born Nov 26 so I'm a Sag baby i guess. I have no idea what that means.

[DizzyDesii]

Sag are good. A little jealous when it comes to paranoia of being cheated on but still good

[t-8900]

wow that's accurate af. never put much stock in zodiac. Yes I'm very dominating in some aspects. sex especially. I couldnt do with cheating. it would cause me to one up if that happened if i didn't flat out leave. i can get spiteful and vengeful about certain things. that's certainly one of them

[DizzyDesii]

Yel thats a sag for ya haha

[t-8900]

lol the way some people talk to me about such things it makes it seem like I'M the bad guys somehow? lol
what does it say about Sags liking to get into scraps? Are they quick to get angry? XD

[DizzyDesii]

Yes short tempered. My sis is one and one of my exes

[t-8900]

maybe i'll take another look into the zodiac again for shits and giggles if nothing else. I like to dominate situations. I especially like to dominate other men around women.

[Eagle_93]

Wow, first off, that's really impressive.
Secondly, I'm sorry for your childhood, wish it could have been better for you😢,
remember though, everything in our life shapes us into who we are today.

Great myTake (didn't know you were an Aquarius)

[DizzyDesii]

Yes its shaped me big time. Omg are you an Aqua too?

[Eagle_93]

Nah, I'm Sag

[DizzyDesii]

Awww snaparoo

[Eagle_93]

Lol😂 and why might that be? Hmm?

[Chris_u006]

Poetically written. I got so shocked I both laughed, cried and got thinking deeper into how the human mind works sometimes. It also told me how easy it is to take someone for granted and lost by unfairly misstreat that person. Just try to do the opposit of how you have been treaten, and take it step by step if you are ready.

[DizzyDesii]

Oh yes Im definitely doing better :) im glad you enjoyed the poem

[Chris_u006]

Good for you! It's so well written it could become a song or the first script to a movie or playwright. That's why I enjoyed it.

[DizzyDesii]

I def hope to have a biography one day. And yes i’d prefer to include little raps and poems like they did in the movie Jack and The Cuckoo Clock Heart

[Chris_u006]

Nice! I would love to watch a movie and listen to a song written by you. If the writing is this good, It's somewhat easier to gain a success with this high quality.

[DizzyDesii]

It would be the story of a lifetime.. lterally haha. And i already know the actors/actresses i want to play in the film as the people in my life. But yea my days fo wanting to be a writer are over so I don't know how it would ever get picked up

[Chris_u006]

In order to get the right peoples attention and on the hooks, you need to throw out the hooks and hint about it and not just once and to one person, spread it around a little bit, but don't make it possible to steal the entire story in one go and leave you out uncredited.

[DizzyDesii]

Love the tips. Thanks

[Chris_u006]

Don't forget creativity and quality is the most important rather than quantity. It's always better to add variety instead of just repeating the same thing over and over. But ofcourse you knew all this already, because I found all those parts in the story.

[An_Impulse]

if it was legal to clone a human.. i would clone and keep you forever..

or keep you and let clone go.. i haven't decided yet.. but this made me sad (cry for couple tears) and laugh and smile at the same time.

thanks for the emotions you just gave me. :)

[DizzyDesii]

Aww ik songlad you enjoyed it

[DizzyDesii]

*Aww im so glad you enjoyed it

[Tstrbrainer]

Desi, it was really touching.
I could feel you. I'm glad you invited me to this post.

I'm sure some might have had a few tears on their cheeks after reading this. You do know to express your emotions through words.
You are a really good writer and you should continue writing.

I love this❤❤❤❤

[DizzyDesii]

Thank you so much :)

[Gagname]

Wow. Thanks for being so open & sharing about your life with us!

When love & marriage and the rest that you desire finally arrives, it will be so much more sweeter for you...

Until then, may you have peace & patience & faith.

[DizzyDesii]

Thank you so much :)

[Gagname]

:) :)

[Old_Golden]

That was a fucken cliff that was enjoyable, much more enjoyable than going over a cliff usually is. My feelings have hit the rocks at the bottom but they appreciate the art and effort put in to throwing me off the cliff. You went all in on one direction of dealing with sexuality, I did the opposite. Had an experience forced on me but "you're a guy..." and that's all I'm willing to say about that, and I've become a slut. I'll let anyone, well I still have some standards, but a meal and or a drink seems to be all it takes, just give me some attention and I'm yours. Sounds like neither of us are coping healthily... good luck

[DizzyDesii]

Im coping very well. I shared many stories in my life in one poem... a mom who went through mentally abusive relationships, an absent father, a peer pressuring boyfriend, and just a bunch of bad experiences that made me into a good person

[Old_Golden]

I'm glad you turned out well then, I hope I have but who knows. Still, it sucks to have to go through what you did. You have my empathy...

[electromagnetic]

I love this!

I like that you put lot of time and effort into your content. plus you always take time to carefully read what others write and comment.
You are valued!

[DizzyDesii]

Thank you do very much 🙌

[lucas262]

Some deep stuff,
I don't thing I could out my story into poetry itd read more like a tragic hero come

Become the best you
you can, don't do it for anyone or anything but you and don't let anyone stop you.

[DizzyDesii]

Thank you 🙏

[Chikky]

I tried not to allow myself cry but it's so touching.

You really strong girl

[DizzyDesii]

Thank you so much for reading

[lanadelrey25]

This was very touching, as a fellow poet I can easily say this was filled with beautiful and sad emotion. Well done.

[DizzyDesii]

Thank you 🙏

[lanadelrey25]

You're Welcome :)

[AdithyaR]

As a fellow poet, that was an absolute delight to read.
You really put in a lot of time and effort into this. Awesome!

[DizzyDesii]

Thank you that means so much :)

[dropkicknj13]

I liked it, but I kept waiting for the part about how Desi got so dizzy lol

[DizzyDesii]

Hahahaa 😂 i just always been clumsy, tripping over everything. Thats where the dizzy part comes in

[dropkicknj13]

The mystery is finally solved! 🤯

[DizzyDesii]

can't believe no one knew

[dropkicknj13]

Well we haven't exactly hung out a lot so I haven't seen you tripping over anything lol well except your boyfriend occassionally

[Alistayr]

I nearly shot myself midway through, but I persevered, and made it to the end, and it was worth it. Well done, top marks.

[DizzyDesii]

Why’d u wanna shoot yourself

[Alistayr]

It seemed to go on a bit long. But as I said, I came round before the end, and it payed off. It was a compliment.

[DizzyDesii]

THANks :) and yea the others who did the challenge was kinda long too. I didn't wanna seem short lol

[Alistayr]

You're welcome.

[kbharadwaj3125]

I dont kniw how to react to your essay and rap of your life... I wanted to get a lot validation from society but i failed to inpress myself first. I didn't become the best version of myself first. I didn't want to lie to my self, if i want all of my dreams to come to life. May be if some one approves of me. Its okay. Or else its fine. But the first is i must approve myself first thats waht i wad missing. But i hope your get to live your dream. Hope is the only thing i can give you right now.

[DizzyDesii]

And thank you for that

[kbharadwaj3125]

My pleasure miss desi

[Lliam]

Wow, wow, wow, Des! Really wonderful writing. Powerful stuff.

[DizzyDesii]

Thank you so much

[Hans222]

Haha Desi, ALL OF THOSE DESI's will need to rent a bus to get around :D :D
Best wishes for 2019!

[DizzyDesii]

Lmaooo

[smahala1991]

holy shit!!! this is awesome! Thank you for contributing to the #GAGsymposium

[smahala1991]

Not many people can add Mississippi in a poem and make it rhyme that much lol

[DizzyDesii]

Thank youuu :)

[DizzyDesii]

Hahahaha

[smahala1991]

I'm also an Aquarius I was born 2/10/1991

[DizzyDesii]

Oooh we’re close :)

[Titanic1912]

My mom was born on February 10.

[DizzyDesii]

@Titanic1912 so was my grandpa :)

[GoodGuyBreakingBad]

My birthday is Feb 9, 1968