I feel like I don't deserve anything in life, and that I'm meant to suffer?

[Shane_B]

I don't deserve anything... No one... No nothing...

I feel as if my life is punishment and that maybe I deserve it.

I'm a nobody, with no purpose, no meaning, and no worth, and that I deserve everything bad that happens to me...

I feel like everyone I know just feels sorry for me, for being so pathetic and a waste of space that no one cares about and that they all just lie to me...

I don't know why I even still continue to live life, when I feel like I don't even deserve to be alive...

I don't remember what it's like to feel happy, or feel anything for that matter... Maybe I never will...

I feel like there's something wrong with me, and that's why no one wants to know me, or even be friends with me, or anything...

I'm so lost right now, and don't even know how to feel anymore...

I just want to give up on everything and life it's self...

[TheCrawlingDutchMan]

What you are saying sounds very familiar. After years i'm still trying to fit the pieces togheter after i hit my "rock bottom". Honestly i never expected to survive myself, and i nearly didn't. Whatever you do, don't fall into self destructive behaviour (alcohol, drugs, automutilation, gambling etc) keep on searching for something to hold on too and try to"outlife" your problems when there doesn't seem to be a remedy for them. Hard for me to judge what your situation is tho but this is best i can say with given info.
And without saying you should see a therapist if you don't see one already.
Wish you all the happiness in the world, mate. Good luck

[devilish-cutie]

yes things can get better even if you dont feel that way
feelings lie
just hang in there and fight and never give up however hard it gets
if you dont try you set ysf for failure from the start
you gotta get to know ysf better and face some hard things and kinda go above them and grow
anyway, feelings are biggest issue here so turn to logic w differnet ways of thinking about same thing even if you dont feel it
and also try to lift your mood anyway you can like tru funny videos, good music and workout too! Workout really really helps
Also spend time with ysf doing any stupid thing you like to do

[devilish-cutie]

alo realized when you feel lost - turn to basics, like basic things you know about ysf and like

[Anonymous]

It’s just transient, it won’t last forever. Everyone goes through tough times of one form or another. Are you from the UK? If so there are places you can reach out for help, it’s really worthwhile and rewarding to do so when you feel such things.

[Shane_B]

Yeah, I'm from the UK.

What kind of places if you know any?

Also, just letting you know, I've been going to therapy for my mental health since I was 16, and still going now, it's taken almost 5 years to get to where I am now, but I'm still so far away from where I would like to be, it feels un-reachable and impossible...