I haven't experienced much good in my life, all the good I have had was followed quickly by something bad.
I'm sorry, I know life can be hard. The best you can do is to try to make positive changes with the things you have control over and can be improved upon.
Compassion and selflessness to others has not made my life any better, not saying I'm going to stop. I tried being someone new and went into debt because of it and some unseen unfortunate things that happened out of my control.
Perfect age to pick because 17 was how old I was when I tried to kill myself for the second time and yes I would tell myself all about my life after 17 and how I attempt 2 more times and let 17 year old me decide where to go from there.
That's not what I asked. I asked if you could take a time machine and go back, would you convince yourself that these 16 years you have had on this earth, after you tried to take your life, was not worth living?You met no one who you cared about? You met no one who cared about you? You didn't try any new exciting cuisine? You didn't get a chance to travel some place different? You didn't see a film you liked?People who talk about suicide, want to be talked out of it. While simultaneously claiming they have made up their minds.You wouldn't post if you had your mind made up. So at least engage in a genuine conversation.Would you talk yourself into committing suicide at the age of 17?And again, if you wouldn't do that now. It is safe to assume the 50 year old you would look upon the situation the same way.So. . . take some advice from your future self. He knows as more knowledge about life, love and happiness than you do now. . . just as you have more knowledge than that 17 year old kid who thought life was pointless.
Honestly if a 50yr old me popped out of nowhere and told me how shit my life gets and how I'm still alone and I relapsed and attempted a few more times, I'd run into high speed traffic and pray for death and it would be the same for 17yr old me.
So you are completely disingenuous. Thanks for the warning. I won't waste my time on you in the future.
Nothing good or positive I've ever done has ever made a positive impact on my life, in fact the harder I try to make my life better it seems to just make things worse.
Life will always have challenges even if we do our best to avoid them or do nothing or cause them; but the satisfaction from overcoming them can make it worthwhile. I don't know your story but it seems like you're in a difficult head space. It might be worth seeing a counsellor for support
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I'm ok with going to hell. I wouldn't go to heaven anyways.
So you'd be okay (with literally) feeling the absolute worse you've ever felt (if not worse then that) for centuries but you can bare through it for the time you would have left in this life?
And also only God has the final say on who goes to heaven, there is no way to know what your thoughts, feelings and view will be even 1 year from now so there is no way to be 100% sure you wouldn't go to heaven.
I won't ever find love, rejection became too physically painful, so that rules out sex, having kids and grandkids or leaving behind a legacy. All my favourite shows are finished. I don't really have any dreams left. I'm ok with seeing parts of Asia, which I will depending on next year as I'll be leaving for Korea for a year if things pan out next year.
All I have out of all of that is some friends, I'm too broken to even think about having a pet, it's impossible for me to have a family of my own and that used to be my hope and dream.
I didn't say I was going to kill myself, but I certainly don't want to fight not live when everything in my life is shit and isn't getting any better.
I understand. What seems to be the most pressing matter at the moment?
Loneliness, lack of confidence, lack of self-esteem, lack of intelligence, no skills or talents, my job, the fact that I am constantly called ugly.
May I message you?
I get that.
I don't drink and women do like me, I've never even been on a date. Video Games is all I've got out of the 3.
I don't see the issue..
Problem is I wasted my whole life trying to date, never got a date and women don't like me, I've been rejected so many times based on my face. So the only thing out of the 3 is play games but with my Depression even playing games is like a chore.
That's a shame. I'd say do what makes you feel happy, but it seems that negativity has taken over. I say fuck it, ride the crazy rollercoaster, and get your kicks. By any means necessary!
I'll never be able to have kids.
I have no hope
What went wrong so that you hate the future? seems you already checked out what is coming you way
I don't want to be reborn
Same. But I believe in Buddhism and it says that the reincarnation exists.
I believe in Buddhism also and I still don't want to be reborn, I'm ok going to hell.
That's what I am doing.