What do you miss most about yourself?

[Mellifluous_]

Inspired by this video:

[MCheetah]

I miss my teenage years, back when I was still considered tall and handsome and not a short-sh*t like I am now.

I had Precocious Puberty, which means I started puberty early, at age 8, but also had really stunted growth because of it. I was the same height at age ten, 180 cm, as I am now. Thereby, tall for a teenage male, short for an adult male. Absolute sh*t tier level too, because it's only common-short and not super short, like 5'4"/162 cm. At least super short men are quick and angle. There's literally no benefits to being sh*t-tier height and infuriates me in ways I can't describe in words alone.

My life has been ruined because I ended up this genetic f*cking mess. Nothing about my physical appearance or health is positive. From the inadequate, garbage height, to the Hypothyroidism, nothing about my body I like. I never even get sick or ill, but I couldn't care less about it. I'm active a lot, but I can't do much because of my physical limitations. This all started as soon as I reached, what would normally be "adult" age. When I was a teenager, I was athletic and strong.

So what do I miss the most? Still being tall and strong and not being this f*cking short, hideous, ugly MESS of a human being. Just fat and failing organs, in a tiny girl-sized height. I used to have hope when I was a teenager. Not anymore.

[BrosephBrostar]

Honestly, not much. The mistakes I've made throughout my life were all necessary, but none were debilitating enough for me to regret them, and I'd rather be aware of all the bullshit that's going on than blissfully unaware. It doesn't make me happy, and I get why people would rather keep their heads in the sand, but being a mushroom is infinitely worse for me. I don't place a high value on innocence for myself.

[Mellifluous_]

So you don't miss anything about yourself? It doesn't have to be connected to your past mentality or anything like that. It can be as simple as missing how fit and healthy you once were for example.

I agree though, mistakes teach us valuable lessons. Innocence can definitely put an individual at higher risk so I get where you're coming from!

[BrosephBrostar]

Nope, don't even miss that. I am working on reducing my weight, but that's only because I got chunky in the first place, and at the end of it, I'll appreciate being at a thinner weight because I fought for it.

I guess I could say I miss the fencing days in college. That was fun.

[Mellifluous_]

Ahh I see. I admire your mindset!

Wow that does sound like it was fun!

[BrosephBrostar]

It's a mindset more people should have. It's basically Johnny Joestar's, a character from the same series as my PFP, character arc. He struggles to "get back to zero", fighting to get back what he once had, but of course the fruits of the labor are the more sweeter at the end because of the losses along the way (and boy were there losses). 'Course, I'm not advocating people to make life ruining decisions in order to learn from them (although the ones that manage to do the impossible and recover from them certainly would), but relatively minor and reversible ones like being a couple of dozen pounds overweight is a good lesson.

And yeah, fencing was fun.

[Anonymous]

I love Thoraya's videos!

I miss my old weight and how active I was. I used to have so much more energy before serious adulting kicked in.

[Mellifluous_]

It's never to late to work on being all of that again! Health has such a major impact on one's mental health. I would highly recommend you put more focus on exercising and eating healthy to be more energetic and to feel better about your appearance. I'm one to talk though 😭 I know all of this, yet I've become so lazy over the past few months. And my mental health is really paying the price for it.

[Mellifluous_]

And yes, Thoraya is a gem ✨

[Opinion Owner]

She is amazing! I watch her videos religiously. I'm so happy to see there was a new post.

Thank you for your words of encouragement. I know my mental health is struggling because I'm breaking out from stress right now and I'm thriving in a world of chaos. I'm going to have to spend today deep cleaning my room to jumpstart the process.

I hope that you too find what you need within yourself to become the best version of yourself again!!!

[Mellifluous_]

That was me a while back haha. I haven't watched her videos for some time now.
Thats awesome that you're thriving in the chaos.
My mum and I actually spring cleaned our apartment today!
Having a clean environment really helps uplift you 🤌

Thanks babe 💕✨
Wish you all the best on your journey 🙏

[Opinion Owner]

Lol! We're a little similar, you and I.

That's confirmation that today is the day! 🤗😆 Carpe diem!

And thanks, you too hun! 💚

[Mellifluous_]

Hahaha! Awesome ✨🤗😆

[Sonorous]

I miss having the qualities of innocence, natural confidence, & curiosity that come with naivety. Back when it didn't take much for us to love ourselves or feel satisfied with life. It was a time before we had the ability & desire to comprehend the brutal truths of reality. A time before our lessons on why we should be ashamed of ourselves really sunk in.

[exitseven]

My old self had a lot more fun. I am too serious these days.

[Mellifluous_]

Why is that?

[exitseven]

Got married and had kids.

[Mellifluous_]

Ahhh. Do you regret?

[exitseven]

no, I just am looking for my old self again.

[Mellifluous_]

Best of luck ✨🤌

[exitseven]

thanks for that.,

[SunnySensei]

I miss being carefree and "enjoying every moment" attitude I had, Miss.

[Mellifluous_]

I can completely relate to this. Lately work as been stressing me out so much, it feels suffocating. Something I've been trying to do to help with this, is want less. There's much less stress involved when I realise I really don't need many fancy things to be happy and content. If I can learn to be satisfied with only the absolute necessities, then life will be more enjoyable and relaxing for me. I find that not relying on outside factors and objects to make me happy takes a lot of my stress away.

[SunnySensei]

That's a pretty solid advice Miss, but the expectations of my loved ones doesn't allow me to settle for less.

[FilmGuy93]

I distinctly remember being a much more happy-go-lucky person earlier in life. I had that kicked out of me by life, but I still see it when I look in the mirror sometimes.

[MadBoy]

I miss being a kid. No worries, no knowledge of the real world, and reality was just something I was aware of but never had to really take part in. Heck, school was better than being an adult.

[_no_one_]

Innocence, joyfulness, social skills, positivity and charisma

[Anonymous]

I ran the 100 yard dash in 10.2 seconds in high school and a halfback weight of 180 lb.
Now I'm 240 and I waddle. :-(

[m33lad]

Take C0ViD jab and die! To help to depopulated the planet

[Mellifluous_]

Oh dear 🧐 what have we here

[Mellifluous_]

Not gonna lie though, we do need to depopulate the planet. We've made a right royal mess.

[m33lad]

Good job! Yah so the evil people that have sex with under age kids and rip their hearts out and drink their blood can do that to the reminding 20% people. God said be fruitful. Satan said kill your babies and each other.

[iBeowulf]

Only brown majority countries are overpopulated and that because of foreign aide. White majority countries are in demographic winter because of feminist laws, I suspect.

[m33lad]

You’re an idiot! World ain’t overpopulation have you ever drove Anywhere? Did you try looking around? 1 hr out of any city is all empty space. You Satan worshiper useless eater!

[Dinosaursandanime65]

Nothing. Updates make me better

[Mellifluous_]

I like this mindset 🤌

[Dinosaursandanime65]

Last year I was mobile, now I’m a PS4.

[Mellifluous_]

😂😂

[Dinosaursandanime65]

Thanka

[Dinosaursandanime65]

Sknaht

[Aiko_E_Lara]

Before my chronic pain occurred.

[Mellifluous_]

Ah shame... What happened?

[Aiko_E_Lara]

Not sure. I think it's some sort of a nerve pain in my left testicle and lower abdomen area makes me felt like the after effect of getting punched in the gut or getting kicked down there. I just have to shrug it off.

[Anonymous]

I miss having smooth hairless body..
Being tall and muscular...

[iBeowulf]

Feelings?

[Mellifluous_]

Do you mean like emotional responses to things?

[iBeowulf]

Yeah, girl stuff like that.

[Mellifluous_]

I see. You miss the girl stuff

[iBeowulf]

Yes... it's good to be helpless some times.

[Joker_]

I don't know

[Mellifluous_]

You once knew... I miss that about you

[Joker_]

So true

[Lolitahbebe2]

I miss myself before the rotten people in my life

[Anonymous]

nothing

[Mellifluous_]

Awesome

[Tstrbrainer]

My old workout habits. What about you?

[najekim]

My youth.

[Sabretooth]

being 17.

[BigKevHanma]

My virginity