Watching NASA TV helps me to relax! How to persist?

[Gökbörü]

I'm 32 years old and still live with my parents in the same house for years. I'm unemployed for some years cause of some psychological problems.
But really guys, my soul wanna like breaking out of my body, I'm fed up living always the same thing every and every day, I don't wanna see the people in my district anymore or hear the loud noises!

When I'm watching NASA Tv I get relaxed and remember that I am in reality a really intelligent person and wanna follow my dreams. But after a few hours later I'm back in my trash lifestyle again. My sould wants to explode my body. That is what I'm feeling right now...

[ManOnFire]

You said you have psychological problems and you're unemployed because of it. Do you get any kind of therapy or counseling?

[Gökbörü]

I never had a therapy. My psychological problems are coming from my childhood. But I have the worst time ever. I cannot going to work for years cause of anxiety that I'm gonna bullied again like in my school years. I cannot trust anyone because of my negative thoughts. This is not life.

[ManOnFire]

That's why you need to see therapy. The older you get, the worse it will get, and the harder it will be for you to ever climb out of the whole and make a life for yourself.