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Why my family deserves be married happy except for me? Why I deserve be unhappy and not married?😓?

I’m 25. At this age my sister in law was getting married moving into her new home with my brother. At 25 I live alone in a studio apartment. I have the dream furntire I wanted in my future dream home, live in the city I wanted live at, have the dream floor I wanted. My step siblings all married fast at 22-23. my brother& sisters married the first girlfriend/boyfriend they had & can marry the person they love. Now this week my brothers wife’s last youngest sister got proposed to so it’s offical I’m the youngest last person in family that will never marry. I cry depresed most days. After I went shopping today I sat in my car miserable as I’m unhappy. I have baby fever I want start my family, live with a boyfriend or be married. Be apart of my bfs family. Start happy complete life. I have a boyfriend but he isn’t family oriented & his sister isn’t married but has kids with boyfriend. His parents are divorced. He isn’t type of guy to go to baby showers or family parties. He wants forever live with mom & take care of her. The issue is, he’s the guy I love. I don’t deserve marry a random new guy I don’t have feelings for. I deserve be with the guy I love like my step siblings. I know this guy since I was 18 now I’m 25. He was 23 now he’s 30. I did marry once wen I was 18 but I’m waiting for divorce papers. It was a guy that used me & made fun of me belittle me cuz I’m very short baby face & he was over 6ft treated me like a stupid little kid & only he is a smart grown up adult mature. He now has a super tall girlfriend that likes to party like him. And I’m now with my boyfriend that is super short like me 5ft. Maybe I’ll just end up being a baby momma as my dream is be pregnant have my baby 😞I just don’t understand why god make them happy and he want me miserable?

Why my family deserves be married happy except for me? Why I deserve be unhappy and not married?😓?
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