*If you find this post offensive, keep your opinions to yourself please.* I feel like I’m stuck in time and also so far ahead of myself. I’m about to graduate college in May. , I am also applying to my university’s Speech Language pathology assistant program and hoping funds will come through for that so I can make the most of my gap year. I also want to go to grad school but still trying to figure out the logistics of it. A lot of people look at me like I’m a failure for wanting to be a SLPA first instead of rushing into grad school. On top of that, my close friends are engaged and planning weddings. Some other friends are questioning when I will get engaged. I’m in a relationship myself, for almost 3 years and my boyfriend and I have talked about next steps. I know he wants to get married, I just feel like my boyfriend is so hyper-focused on the money, like every guy. I feel like my boyfriend thinks he has to be completely together to be a husband when we can just build from where we are. I have never wanted him to be perfect to be with me, I just want trust, respect, love, and peace. Those are things we give to each other anyway. I told him the longest I would date is 4 years before getting engaged and want to be married with that year before getting engaged. I try my best not to compare myself to others, especially our successful couple friends, but every time I go to my church, I feel like I’m surrounded by ‘celebrities’ and feel like I’m so awkward or not “holy” enough to be in certain roles nor do I want to burn myself out with serving. This post may not make sense to some, but this is the best way I can sum up current feelings I’m experiencing. Has anyone ever felt so many feelings at once but don’t know how to make sense of them?
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Girls, How to process several feelings at once?
What Girls Said
Perfect thing to wonder about it's not awful!
Best thing is to read your Bible see who God says you are! Focus on that!
Also as a married woman marriage is a pit stop. Life goes on and kids take it all and all your feelings time but work!
Honestly enjoy being a couple. Maybe tell your man you both don't have to have it together for marriage.
A lot of couples who do just fall apart any ways. Work on making that bond and communication and working together... Selfless love
Here is a big hug and the best way to get through it all is talkkng with someone!
You will do amazing and you never know what is in your friends closets the pain they went though or go through alone!