What can I do with my life, it’s such a mess?

[Anonymous]

I’m 32 years old, I severely injured my back and have bad genes I guess. 3 herniated discs in my lower spine. I have a very narrow spinal canal so when the discs herniated, they started pinching my spinal cord. I hurt every damn day. I’ve exhausted all my options except for a fusion, but every doctor I’ve seen says not to do it. I have had surgery already. It’s been 7 years of dealing with this. I have permanent numbness in most of my right leg. I feel like this has affected my life so much. Any argument I have with my wife, she brings it up against me. I feel like I’m so much more miserable and feel like I’m a terrible father to my 2 boys. Constantly yelling at them. And I just can’t stop being miserable and angry. Feel like I’m letting everyone down. Everyone already looks down on me because I haven’t been able to find a job that I can handle. Only time pain partially goes away is when I lay down. I can’t stand or sit for longer than 20 minutes at a time before changing positions. I sleep with a cpap machine that’s uncomfortable also because I guess I stop breathing about 93 times an hour without it. Sometimes I just feel like the world would be better off without me in it. I feel like a burden. This isn’t the life I want. I just really don’t know what else to do.

[midnightmoon05]

Make sure your wife and kids are in good shape if something happens to you. Because you truly love them.
our life is just that…

the best you can do is work on your mental health and be kind to them.

pain/suffering is part of life… like it or not… angry or not… so I chose to be kind, and calm even when in pain. I smile and make others smile… if I leave… maybe I made someone else’s day a little better…

I have learned… nothing matters in this world…. Try your best!
❤️

[Nikki1989]

You might have to contact a therapist that can help you cope with the emotional and psychological impact of chronic pain. They can also provide strategies for managing stress, anxiety, and depression.

[Asker]

Unfortunately it’s super expensive to see a therapist or counselor under Medicare

[lorenzomichael]

Stop all the shit you do that’s not helping your situation. Then set little goals for yourself that you can achieve. Do some lite exercises unless your crippled you can do something. Remember that nothing comes easy. Then live your life positively one day at a time.

[Iron_Man]

Try physical therapy try a professional counselor as well. Go to the gym

[Asker]

I’ve done years of physical therapy, counseling is super expensive under Medicare. I go to the gym but mostly able to do about 30 minutes of random things before I start hurting

[Iron_Man]

Try a clinic for counseling It’s real cheap.

[MoonFace2]

Have you heard of a mental health care plan? We have those where I live (Australia); so I see my psychologist at a reduced price.

[Jmmmfi4]

MAYBE GET ON DISABILITY

[Asker]

I am on disability. Another reason people look down on me

[Jmmmfi4]

FUCK EM WHO CARES

[Talktomeplz55]

Disability? Therapy?

[Asker]

I’ve done years of therapy, I’m also on disability but still people look down on me for that. Everyone says “you’re too young”

[Talktomeplz55]

Honestly who gives a fuck what people think. Are they helping you pay your bills?