How do I stop caring, hoping for love, and just fully give up?

[Anonymous]

I have given up on a lot of things to keep my mental health.
Now I am struggling to give up on being selfless, finding love, and hoping for it.
I have become pathetic, and no one likes pathetic people.
So I want to stop thinking about it, hoping for it.
I don't even know what I enjoy doing.
I just have random facts about random things.
I feel I am completely broken and i have put the pieces in a bag, so that now not a single soul can fix them as I don't think I am capable of changing.
I want to know how I should not feel jealousy, remorse, regrets or guilt for feeling like this.
I just want to give up.
I only have my parents and their highest respect to uphold. I am going to put that aside. Then I won't have anything to lose other then my life. And it's useless for me cause I don't enjoy anything at all.

[midnightmoon05]

I didn’t finish reading it.
Set a few small goals…. Get it done. (Get up, get dress, clean up yourself, dress decent… get laundry done, cook a healthy meal)

Set a few bigger goals, get them done. ( go get a job, go talk to a few people, make some friends, go to the gym - get fit)…. Set a greater goal… get it accomplished. Save up money… buy a used car, buy an apt.
stop wasting time.’

[Asker]

I can't keep friends, I can't go to the gym because of my broken hip.
And worst of all I can't find the energy 😭.
I am so addicted to YouTube, or knowledge consumption which is random, useless, and not even a good talking point.

I am also unable to find any discipline to myself.
When I was working in Barclays Bank, for 1.5 years I was completely disciplined, wake up everyday at 6:30 do basic stretches, bath office and come back late (more then 8 hours a day).
Because I didn't have any plans, I did join the gym for some time and broke my hip in the gym.
I found it hard to find new friends cause I don't like bars or clubs.
All I was doing was job and earn.
I tried to travel to places but it didn't feel like a vacation, it felt like a task to do.
I wanted to learn how to drive but then I got my first promotion and stress levels increased.

[Asker]

After that everything became a burden

[Asker]

I thought job stress was the issue, I left that job to come to UK to get a master's degree.

[Asker]

And now I am in the same position again, losing friends, losing interest in things I enjoy, and again the feeling of absence of love.

[midnightmoon05]

Great list to start a plan to work on.
Mine over matter..
build your strength!!

[Nikki1989]

[Asker]

I don't understand

[Anonymous]

You have to become cold and fully devoid of emotions (only one I have left is pain but that's hardwired into survival)

[In_Trance]

Seems like you've answered your own question