AuDHD, bipolar, and a chaotic past: is there any real hope for my future?

[IHaveRespawned]

I have Autism with ADHD (AuDHD) along with Bipolar. I have been hospitalized over 20 times in a psych hospital. I have held 25 jobs in a span of 15 years. I have been labeled online as a "predator". I have 2 misdemeanor convictions for stalking and harassment (same incident; 10 years ago).

I am now married to an Autistic girl too, live at my parent's house with my wifez and I collect SSDI benefits.

My diagnosis:

1. Autism

2. ADHD

3. Bipolar 1 NOS

4. OCD

5. Anxiety

Lifelong mess

There is hope

See poll

[LazerBean]

There is hope, you just have to stop making bad choices.

[IHaveRespawned]

I am not desperate to find a woman who doesn't have a romantic past because I already found a woman who never had a romantic bond before me and now we are married.

[LazerBean]

What does that have to do with anything I said

[IHaveRespawned]

Because a lot of my mistakes revolved around that

[LazerBean]

Those were not the cause though, they were just some of the outcomes.

[msc545]

You obviously need appropriate psychological and medical care. I hope you can get some of this because it sounds like you could benefit from it.

[IHaveRespawned]

I cannot afford it. It is a vicious cycle. Mental illness and Autism and cannot maintain stable employment, therefore, cannot afford adequate mental health and Autism services and rely of SSDI and Medicare. Tennessee has horrible and limited services here.

[msc545]

If you can I get the car you need in Tennessee and I am not surprised at that. Then you probably need to move at least temporarily to a state where you can get the kind of care that you need. I realize that would be a sacrifice and we'd cost some money. But if you stay where you are, I don't think anything good is going to happen for you in regard to your health.

[Cidknee]

You're smart enough there's no reason to fail time after time. You learn and adjust.

[Abbycado]

If you seek help, maybe.

[Agape93]

To quote a movie "Oskar that's cruel! You're giving them hope!"

[Anonymous]

Why did you marry her

[IHaveRespawned]

Because we love each other

[Opinion Owner]

Why do you love her

[IHaveRespawned]

Because I do and she is great for me. I just wish I can be the husband I need to be

[Opinion Owner]

Why is she great to you? How does she look

[IHaveRespawned]

Why are you asking these questions

[Opinion Owner]

Am curious as to why u would marry someone and why they would marry u

[Opinion Owner]

How do u both look

[Opinion Owner]

Why do u want a virgin woman