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My Struggle With Relationship Anxiety

Ever since I was a little girl, I can remember laying in bed, scared to death about who-knows-what, sweating, heart beating fast, and trembling. I didn't know it then, but I was having panic attacks. This unfortunately followed me to young adulthood. As a young adult, of course I wanted to find a man, and a man I found. While I was overjoyed in dating my best guy friend after a bad relationship, the anxiety still followed me. I have what is called, relationship anxiety. It is a real thing folks. Symptoms of this anxiety are:

1. Fear of being judged by a partner

2. Fear of being left by a partner

3. Fear of intimacy

4. Neediness

5. Causing conflict in the relationship when everything is going well

6. Inappropriate jealousy

7. Feeling compelled to test your partner

8. Emotional instability

9. Need for constant reassurance

10. Unnecessary defensiveness

I suffer from all of these at a more extreme level. It causes me to go into panic attacks daily. I get jealous of women that I see even if I am not with my boyfriend. I am constantly needing physical touch and reassurance. I fear intimacy, and it shows in the relationship. While I do love my best friend, It is a true struggle to hold a relationship with him due to my constant negative thinking. I workout, eat healthier, meditate, and pray, but it doesn't seem to be getting better. In fact, they say that relationship anxiety only worsens (if not helped) as the relationship becomes deeper. Relationship anxiety is a real and scary thing. For anyone who has it, I understand your struggle and encourage you to talk to others about it.

My struggle with relationship anxiety

My Struggle With Relationship Anxiety
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