Guy needing a Muslim/hijabi girl to help?

[Kashen17]

It all started about a year ago. I started talking to this girl on my tennis team, and we became best friends. She is a hijabi, so she had a bunch of rules against talking to me. But eventually I grew strong feelings for her. And then I screwed it up. I am going to be honest, I forgot what I did. But we stopped talking for a little until I apologized. Everything was the same, until we just got used to not talking and being depressed. We both felt not talking to each other was like ripping at each other's souls. This continued until the end of school, where the night of she sent me a paragraph about how sorry she was, and that she liked me for a little bit (a week or two). I replied with another paragraph, but the rest of summer we didn't talk the same. Things were awkward. Well naturally I got tired of it. So I wrote her a long, well thought out poem. She sent me something back, letting me know she doesn't believe we can get things the way we used to, but she misses me almost as much as I miss her. But again, she said she didn't have feelings for me. That was last night, and I am so confused on what to do. I want her back. I'm gonna be honest, I've had a good amount of crushes and a girlfriend before. I can't describe what I feel for this girl. I feel like, I was supposed to meet her. That me talking to her was important. That I am an important part of her life. And usually, when I have a crush on a girl, or when I had my girlfriend, I was able to see other girls as pretty, or I'd still (for the lack of a better term) bang another girl that I saw. But now, I can't look at other girls. I just feel like there is nobody better than this one girl. I literally don't have the ability to recognize a girl as attractive anymore, besides this one girl. This is eating me away. I need help. Ask for my kik for screenshots if you want, and if you have read this far thank you. All help would be appreciated. Don't tell me I can't fix it cause I believe I dont have any limitations.

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+1 y

I didn't mean the "bang another girl" part, I meant to say "I'd still see other girls as a girl I'd bang"

[Anonymous]

WHAT is a hijabi? who even came up with this?
we are muslims who WEAR hijab

and here is the thing, its prohibited in islam for a woman to marry a non muslim man :\ not really an option and yes im aware some still do it but that doesn't make it right
now I don't know her (or you for that matter) but she might have/had feelings for you and thats whats stopping her or maybe she really doesn't but she can feel your pain and she feels bad

i was in a situation like this, the guy i guess felt pretty much as you but i wouldn't even let myself think of him that way because (Aside from the fact that he was from another country) he was agnostic and obviously nothing can ever happen there and i wasn't expecting it to, and he was cool to talk to and stuff but never thought of him that way, i didn't tell him about the religion thing till veeeeeeeeeery much later on because all that time i thought he was just crushing...

[Kashen17]

If it came to it, I would convert I guess. And I know a lot about the religion, not more than you, but she told me a girl who wears a hijab is a hibjabi. I don't know maybe she's wrong.

[Opinion Owner]

didn't tell him till i found out he was very much serious i thought it was only fair. anyways he kept trying to ask things and trying to change the situation without him converting or anything (like i said i didn't ask him to and wasn't really holding my breath) and then later on (like months later on) he started asking me stuff about islam like the very very basics and i answered him then he went deeper and im not really a scholar or someone who can give him thorough information so i gave him this site where he could chat with one and about idk... a year? later he converted and is now a much much better muslim than me lol
things were getting pretty serious (i put him through a hard time because i was not very stable emotionally, not his fault but i was going through a rough time, but he still kept trying to pursue me and win me over) and by the time (way before he converted) i was starting to fall for him...

[Opinion Owner]

things were stable or a while, and looked like they were getting better for us, but we got to know eachother a lot more over that time and we found out we both want different things (he wants like a country side life, i want a city life) we both had different goals and such so yea... he is the most special man i have ever met and i doubt ill ever forget a thing about him i do still have feelings for him, but its for the best
he is genuinely a good man (a rare coin.. he is one of the good ones) and things could have worked out but we had different paths to follow

[Opinion Owner]

wow... what was the question again?

[Opinion Owner]

oh sorry didn't see your response lol

i have that site if you want it? it seems to be performing a little less than ok though but its a start (if you wanna learn more about the religion)

[Kashen17]

I just don't know what to do. I want things back to the way it used to be. I can give up my feelings for her, I just want that best friendship we had.

[Opinion Owner]

wait... you're under 18 ? dude you both are still young
are you sure she is the one for you?

[Kashen17]

Im not sure, I know we are young it's highly unlikely anything is gonna happen. I do know for a fact, I won't find another person that I will be the same with.

[chocolateismylover]

Did you ever tell your parents about him?

[Opinion Owner]

@Asker i know EXACTLY how you feel... but think about it, because it may cause more pain for both of you :(

@chocolateismylover no not really, i was really nervous about it and didn't know how/what to tell them... i thought id just leave it till the moment of truth came (him proposing or w/e) but kinda never did lol

[chocolateismylover]

Lol I don't mean to be nosy but how old were you?

[Opinion Owner]

@chocolateismylover No ask away lol its alright

and i was like 18-19 lol im almost 21 now lol

[chocolateismylover]

lol We have similar stories and even the age range is the same :D

[Opinion Owner]

@chocolateismylover NO WAY ! :D

it went the same as my story?

[chocolateismylover]

Not the whole exact story. Only some parts are the same :D

[Opinion Owner]

@chocolateismylover did it have a happy ending? i believe mine did actually xD lol but i mean did you end up together?

[chocolateismylover]

Its a long and complicated story. PM me? I wanna hear about your happy ending.

[Maazin]

I just don't trust anyone who converts or reverts for the sake of a girl or guy. It just doesn't seem right !!!

[Opinion Owner]

@Maazin me neither :D and i repeated that to him and emphasised it like a 100 times just so we're clear he can't do that and he can only convert when he knows it in his heart not just for me

and he did ^_^ he took baby steps into it and now... omg like i said he is probably a better muslim than me now lol (even though we are not even together) and he has so much passion and love for it
im really proud of him for it it was a huge change for him (Another reason why i kept asking him to think about it because its a huge dea and a big change) and yea :D like i said we are not even together and he is a great muslim :)

[Maazin]

I would still have apprehensions if i was in you shoes but good for him i guess.

[chocolateismylover]

You guys are both young. I doubt she'd date you. Try being just friends or cut off all ties.

[whoknowss]

I didn't read all paragraph but i can give u opinions about muslim girls cuz i am turkish.

[markony]

Those Muslim girls are intactly not touched before by any male before
So they can five you all the love in the world
I am afraid you have these feeling because it is something you can't get you are short handed here
Once you have it you will throw it a d get bored of the doll as all children do

[Kashen17]

I see what you mean, but no. I just want her back as my best friend, as things were. And then I was thinking after we are past the awkward stage (again) I would just wait for other things to develop naturally.

[Maazin]

Its alright you're just the normal average teenager. You will soon get over it !!

[Sadiakhan]

Well my mom said that maybe you should try to talk to her about it and see what she thinks cause my mom is a Pakistani muslim woman and she is dating a white English guy as well