How do I let him know I still want him without seaming desparate?

Anonymous
Long story. I re connected with my first love. The love of my life a year and half ago. He just divorced after 17 years. I had just left a relationship after 13 years. We hooked up had sex a few times. He moved all of my furniture for me from one place to another. He always does things for me but he we don’t have sec anymore. I ended up spilling my heart out to him and he told m he doesn’t want to hurt me so we can’t get together because he is a pice of shit.. his words not mine. His ex took everything. Was taking his money for almost a year just paying bare minimum until she left and he ended up in tremendous debt. Then he gets into a relationship with this lady that is ok where near his type and he called me a few weeks ago and told me he is basically just with her because she takes him back and forth to his other job. We stay in touch. He called me a few days ago to tell me he got a really good job by my house. We talked for a few minutes then he called back a couple hours later just to chit chat. I think he knows I like nice things and he feels like he can’t afford to give me nice things. He has also told me this. But, I don’t care about that. I just love him and want to be with him. I cry all the time because I wish he could just see I just want to make him happy. I feel in my soul he is my person.
How do I let him know I still want him without seaming desparate?
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